more painted hydrangeas :)

Tito's favorites, laughs. maybe bec. he loves us so much? :> probably, for 2 decades now he's still around when some of my friends are divorced and widowed now...really, God is good and looking out for me and my family :)

gender class of in between & etc...

does it matter in life? at the very beginning of time our God created a man and a woman alone and nothing in between so they argue. by that there's no place in our society of these lesbians and gays. but isn't it that God loves "all" of us, sinners or saints alike and by that there shouldn't be any discrimination to these individuals. i see it that it's not solely their choice to be in this kind of predicament. so we need understanding and acceptance in our hearts for them. i did it for i have a dear love one in this kind of situation and my love and respect did not ever change..."i love you just the way you are" for you :) ...and for all you guys and gals in this category as well. it's not me to pass judgement on your life for i did not create you and i did not bring you into this world, God did. we are all equals and thereby needed to be treated equally as well...we are all sisters and brothers in Christ, so we all need to love, accept and respect each other...taking gender aside, or out of the equation. for again, love transcends anything, this if our love is really true to that individual :)

this is out of topic, but in regards to my movie preferences, not that anyone cares or would want to know :) is i go to the movies to be entertained. so happy endings are a must for me. i don't want to pay for my being miserable, sad and crying for my reason to be there will be in the trash in the first place, defeated to make it very clear, laughs. so even how brilliant a movie is directed, written or acted upon i shun unhappy movies. that's why i go for the shallower ones, like the likes of Jackie Chan and James Bond, laughs. for I'd like to be still laughing and smiling after a movie, not otherwise :) this way i was entertained and ready to go back to my sometimes in between kinda, sorta way of life in this planet earth, laughs. oh well. and i don't want to see my life again in these movies that i go to, so i go for the not a mirror of my life flicks, really!

last night our president gave his last state of the union address. what a pathetic way to end your term in office. so much death bec. of your war that you lied for the reason of it, a million of your people have been driven out of their homes for they lost their jobs that went to China, businesses owned by your rich cronies, the ones that bank rolled your campaign to be in that office and you gave millions and millions of tax breaks to them as well, the rich, like you, yourself, turning a big huge budget deficit of this country from a surplus which Bill Clinton left for you. that is a shame! i did not finish it for i was unhappy. i just can't waste my time looking and listening to all the lies and failures of this president, i just can't. if you're a president you need to care and lead your people to prosperity not poverty and not siding and giving all that government money back to the rich which they don't need that much anyway for they are that na. greedy that's what they are and it started with him and his vice president who benefited with those money laden government contracts in Iraq! I'm sorry, but the truth hurts, same as what the working middle class here in America is suffering now.

the flower of "forever"

the EVERLASTING :) in pinks and yellows...a 'sunflower' look alike :> being dried and being sold here...the Feb. bloom, for wouldn't you want your love to be forever? laughs. just a joke of course, for nothing is forever except God :) thanks to the owners of these shots, they made me smile...so even pics are meant to be shared and enjoyed by anyone, just sad that i can't say my thanks to them personally...for they were anonymously posted...

pink sun-like delights...

and a charming butterfly :)

there's always the sun

when the world
comes tumbling down
there's always the sun

when the end
of your life is done
there's always the sun

when all is bare and dark
and just emptiness abounds
there's always the sun

when all of your love ones
had abandoned you
there's always the sun

you can count on
to dry your tears away
you can count on to
cheer you on your way

just like the
almighty God above
just turn your
head upward
and your heart's
sorrow and strife
will melt away
in a flash

with its powerful
rays of love
with its strength
to warm our hearts
forever without end
it goes down but
it will always come back
rising in the east for us

until our last days on earth
until our last breath comes...

broken interludes

what would become
of a melody that does
not have refrains

what would become
of a journey that don't
have sights in between

what would become
of a freeway that does
not have a bridge to pass

what would become
of a man when no boyhood
to learn and to gripe

it will be just like rain
that came pouring down
without a pause without a stop

it will be just like a song
with just one tone
with that annoying note

for a rain without rainbows
is not as bright
and a life without a spice
is just dull and a drag

and the earth without the sun
is just as bad
for a person is only riding
in darkness until he or she dies...

painted hydrangeas

very pretty! again borrowed from the web :) thanks to those talented artists. yes, i believe that art is meant to be 'shared' and 'enjoyed' by everyone :) the reasons for their being...

the flower...

of a million delights :> a happy, sunny and a very lovely bloom. i think so :) just my eyes can't have enough of it, laughs. oh well. this flower adorns the houses of the rich, maybe bec. it matches the count or the amount of their monetary possessions, hmn...maybe so...but even i'm not rich i'd like to have it in my phil. garden in the future :> yes, that countless blooms make my face be filled with awesome wonder and disbelief, laughs. true!

the meaning of love

love is a sparrow
that flies in the sky
love is a dove
flying up above

love is the friends
that hang around
love is your family
that loves you so much

love is a flower
that blooms constantly
love goes on forever
like an endless sea

love is a gift
that is given so free
without any string attached
given to thee

love is the sacrifice
that you bear in your heart
just for the happiness
of the one you loved :)

for three minutes i had defined love the way i see it...i wonder how many in this world will agree with me, laughs. yup, this is love according to my mind :) a poem? for the upcoming love month :>

but my best DEFINITION of love that i like most is this:

love is like the SUN
that knows no bounds
it FOREVER shines
and gives you warmth
till the end of time...

wow! :> the music here is shuffling now, one tune at a time :) i wonder, can you shuffle love as well? *} that is the million dollar question, laughs. and the answer is, yes, but, just like music, it should only be one love at a time, or else you gonna be dubbed as a two timing Don Juan, or a restless and wandering Casanova, laughs. and that is not a good reputation of you, for you gonna be there with the likes of former presidents *} not that good if you ask me, laughs. so, one is for one, that is the one that you would want to be one, alright? laughs. and pls. keep it that way till the end of time, okidoki? this way your lady love will be on top of the clouds, for always...(^_~)... :)

and the true love that all of us can easily find and always be there for us is only the love of Jesus :) for relationships whatever kind have the tendency to break up, not always and not for some, but it happens as a fact, so it would be better for us not to ever forget Him...on air is my favorite music at church :)

more hydrangeas :)

the bloom that keeps on going and going :>

the million dollar flower :)

the multi-petalled and multi-colored hydrangea :> for your lady loves this coming valentines' day, guys :) this if you think just like my husband. yes, the flower of his choice, not in pink, NO, but in blue and i did not like it! for I'm not a fan of the blue color. but hey, the polite? person that i am, i said my thanks, of course. oh well...images "borrowed" from the web :)
***
in pink, this is the flower that I'll give to my senorita, given the chance. it matches with the tune too and that so much love and care that she had for the poor and the under-privileged persons like me and my million thanks to her for her kind heart and generosity as well. this flower expresses it all. nice!
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HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY in advance to everyone :> enjoy this day of love with your love ones...your lady love, or whom ever you want :)
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and always THANKS for your VISIT :)

goodbye is...

goodbye is
closing the door
to the bad and those
unwanted experiences
of the past
goodbye is signing off
and closing your eyes
to the reality
that you never
thought to be the
truth, never was

but face with
this sad thing
it opened your eyes
no choice but to
say your goodbye
to it, at last
now you know
that those things
that were dancing
in your brain
they were untrue
they're just make believes
and only parts of
your silly head

re-group accept
that's what was
in your brain
are just but fakes
lies and unrealies
it's good that
God showed
you the way
to the truth of
your situation
take note, take heed
and gladly change

don't cry, isn't that
you've thought once
that you're the best
then prove it now
that you can handle it
love btw is not there
it's only in your imaginings
and again those were
just in your hard
headed brain

at least God
showed you the way
the truth to your
pitiful situation
face it bravely
again it's your fault
you believed yourself
to all these imaginings
that were dancing
in your hot and silly head
and the way to go
is to accept
that they're false
and all are just
but now your
sad realities

and glad that you
woke up at last
yes, it took a nasty bump
but you never believed it
never, not until now
now that you're faced
with the sad tune
the sad reality
of this part of your life

go on and move on
open your eyes
and go search
once more
who knows if
tomorrow will
bring you the one
the true love
the true care
that you've thought
was on that night, once...

isn't it just sad that some of us thought that we found the one at last, but in reality it's not. this must be a jolting kind of experience, laughs. oh well. but what can we do, cupid is naughty sometimes you know, laughs. oh well, again. and oops never ever forget to smile, it would help you know, my dad told me so...(^_~)...

life is a celebration :)

which this powder puff flower always reminds me of :) you might disagree but that is life to me. a celebration of love during happy times and of sacrifice during sad and trying times...my blog music will be shuffling its tunes, finally :> so let the music takes center stage...music after all is an art, an expression of what life is all about... only incorporated and embedded in sometimes sad and soulful melodic tunes but lively and loud on some occasions as well. a mixture of hooplas in rants, a mixture of serenades of love and lust, of hates and pains. you name it, you'll get these in music. just listen and observe :> and let your soul and spirit be mesmerized, captured and imprisoned, what a description. my mind really is on over drive, laughs. oh well. but to put it simply music is just magic unsurpassed!

and I'd like to think that the few who visits me will have a little blast with the tunes here, laughs. aside from their search of poems. yes, truly there are souls all over the world who loves poetry. that is my experience in this blog. although i can't deliver good poems, i try and you know, it's just like the word "almost" as I've said which is synonymous to failure, laughs. but hey, i failed but i tried and i gave my best and that's all that matters to me at the end of the day :)

would it matter?

this week, Chuck Norris belittled John McCain bec. of his age of 72. he said that Mike Huckabee, age 53 is of sound mind and body so he's more fit to serve as our president. John McCain took it in stride and joked that he'd like to call his mother, age 95 to come and wash his mouth, of Norris, that is, laughs. oh well. discrimination in age, race, gender and religion, you name it, are not left out of the equation in the search for the next commander in chief of this country, but would it matter? more likely John Mccain will be the republican flag bearer and Hillary will be ours, the democrat. and i'm really not very optimistic for a war hero with his sacrifice, integity and always voted with his concience might be our next president and for the first time i really won't mind. even though i won't vote for him i think, at age 72, this man is ready and deserving to hold that highest office of the land. and i saw his mom last year. she's still lucid, healthy and a very lovely lady. wow, what a woman. i'm envious which i seldom am of anything :> and besides he visited J.C.'s catholic school then when he was in a race with George Bush for the nomination but lost. hmn, i wonder where were those pics now :) but really, a man of honor, a former POW and with humor is not bad at all to run this country, given the chance, as the old late former pres. Ronald Reagan did...once...and i like him :)

so would age matter in politics or any other aspects in our lives? i know in the Phil. there is age discrimination in finding jobs, just flip the ad section. there is a quote in age bracket as to what they would like to hire but not in the U.S. for such employer will be sued big time. and really age is just one aspect or just one part of the whole pie or the picture. for there are older people that thinks like younger kids and vice versa, laughs. oh well. after all they say that age is just but a number. how true, laughs. and you better believe that for all including you will grow old someday and no escaping to this reality of life in this planet earth...so be kind to the old, be very understanding to the aged, for you'll be in their shoes someday, not unless you'll die young...

a very solemn hymn :)

LORD, WHEN YOU CAME TO THE SEASHORE / PESCADOR DES HOMBRES
by Cesareo Gabarain

1. Lord, when you came to the seashore you weren't seeking the wise or the wealthy, but only asking that I might follow.

REFRAIN (English): O Lord, in my eyes you were gazing, Kindly smiling, my name you were saying; All I treasured, I have left on the sand there; Close to you, I will find other seas.

REFRAIN (Spanish): Señor me has mirado a los ojos, sonriendo has dicho mi nombre, en la rena he dejado mi barca, junto a ti buscaré otro mar.

2. Lord, you knew what my boat carried: neither money nor weapons for fighting, but nets for fishing my daily labor. (REFRAIN)

3. Lord, have you need of my labor, hands for service, a heart made for loving, my arms for lifting the poor and broken? (REFRAIN)

4. Lord, send me where you would have me, to a village, or heart of the city; I will remember that you are with me. (REFRAIN)

really, a very heart touching tune...simply a soul searching melody, for me at least...thanks to this talented guy :) okay, the month of hearts is slowly edging upon us. we're very lucky for we are loved, in every way, first by God and of course from the love of our lives, and from our fellow humans too, this is hopefully. so let's send kisses to them and of course that flower to the one that loves us, as a token of our thanks. i do it, and i'm sure most of us only in so many different ways...in the open and in secrets and you better believe that, laughs. oh well...it's okay, express it, like the way you like it or feel it...(^_~)...

"I have a dream"...by Martin Luther King Jr.

in this case, yes, a dream to be the next president of this country, the USA. three very talented, very efficient, qualified and very popular individuals on the democratic side are vying for and working hard towards this goal. yup, I'm sure it's their ardent dream to lead this country which by the way had deeply plunged from a surplus economy under Bill Clinton to a very remarkable downward spiral to that nasty pit of debt and deficit by this current administration and now almost in the verge of recession according to certain economic indicators of the credit crunch, the mortgage melt down and the rise in the numbers of unemployed Americans that even wall street is negatively reacting now a days. and what do you know, my family will be getting a check in the mail by June? with the tune of 1,600 USD from the government to veer off this fear of recession with the thought that we will be spending it to boost this economy. although thanks really for the cash Mr. Bush. it's not that I'm not appreciative but if you did not give big tax breaks which mostly went to the rich this won't be probably not happening. if we did not go to war then maybe billions could have been diverted to help your countrymen in a million ways. but any how going back to dreams which Martin Luther King Jr. was very familiar with that brought results to the African Americans of this country although discrimination still exists, still it went a long way to change the way that black people here were treated. only in this country where you can see that dreams might become realities. a woman and a black person might become president, the possibility is there now to be fulfilled if it's in their fate to be one, if it's meant to be...and not only them, all of us can do that too...we can dream, it does not hurt. in fact it will be a catalyst or the start of a journey to a better future for us. i think so and i hope you do to as well :)

from my friend Erlinda...today :)

http://www.frontiernet.net/~jimdandy/specials/blessed.htm

just want to share this beautiful message i got from her today...it made me smile and very thankful...it made me appreciate more, all the things that i have...these God given blessings in my life...it only takes a message like this from a caring friend for me to pause and see those people that really care, the ones that take their time to send a message, the ones that have you in their thoughts and mean it :)

thanks friend, you are truly one in the true sense of that word. i'm blessed :> and i do pray for your full recovery, lighting a candle for you at Shrine, same as what thetet does for me at Baclaran. thanks hon as well :) i love those St. Therese images. perfect!

time to turn the page

she reads you with
all her might
attention to the tilt
wide spanned
riding with the clouds
all smiles
but it turned out
it's all sadness
in disguise

books that come your way
don't judge them until
you read them
all the way
for all you know
the title outside
are just the front
of no substance
of no meaning
and of no life inside

now you've learned
your lessons well
hope for smiles
and don't you
drown again
whose fault is it
it's you to blame
you believed it all
those lies and all that
sweet nothings... :)

laughs. what a sad story, but somewhat funny. but it's time to see the light. to look for a book that's worth the time...(^_~)...yes, mesmerized with similes and metaphors...wake up now, you wouldn't want to be caught dreamily floating asleep in those clouds, or would you? :)

cluster of pinks

cadena de amor, chain of love. but think of it as, even if they're gone and the chain was broken they're still loved and remembered. just sad that goodbyes exist and it makes our hearts ache and bleed...

this pink love flowers' pic was taken at my brod's place in the province one fun vacation time :)

"pescador des hombres"or "lord when you came to the seashore" or "fisher of men" a favorite church hymn playing on the air right now in piano. delightful in anyways, English or Spanish. a very inspiring song that illuminates your way to the path of spirituality. i like and love it a lot...

"The Part Where You Let Go" by Hem

When the rain, breaks the road
are you holding on, are you holding
on to your last good day
when the stone breaks the wheel
are you holding, are you holding on
till the stone rolls away

And I don't know
Is this the part where you let go
and tumbling out of a window
is this the part where you find out
i'm there for you

When the sun leaves the field
are you holding on, are you holding on
to the last sweet light
when the flame leaves your eyes
i still see you there, i still see you there
on your darkest night

And i don't know
is this the part where you let go
in sinking under a shadow
is this the part where you find out
i'm there for you now

As your hands breaking free
i am holding on, i am holding on
as you held on to me

And i don't know
is this the part where we let go
tumbling out of a window
is this the part you're there for me

And i don't know
is this the part where you let go
in sinking under a shadow
is this the part where you find out
i'm there for you
you find out i'm there for you
you find out i'm there for you

the Saint...

where your name was taken, dad... same as always for years and years now on this day, i put some pink flowers on this saint's feet for you and for him on both of your special day...even i can't do it on your grave this proxy place is just as good as well. pics taken at Shrine today :)

countless of times...

you were there for me dad...a song for you today, on your birthday. i can cry, my heart aches with your absence, my tears always roll down my cheeks as i remember your kind smiles as i remember your sacrifices, even they weren't enough, even they weren't the ones that sent me to where i am, God did, with His miraculous ways. your dreams for me did materialized, but only without you reaping the rewards for you've left us too soon, you died so soon and that broke my heart permanently. as i cry and sob in writing these, the pain is just boring into my soul. why did you ever leave so early, what is the reason. like why does so many painful things happen in our lives, a test of our faith in God, maybe...but the suffering is just tremendous, like a boulder be falling and crashing on me, like a flood that rushes in that i can't swim over it, like a cancer or a sickness that knows no cure. yet, i try to smile on all of these, i try as you always had told me to and had recommended then. after that, the pain is not as much, and that joy will slowly creep and envelops my sad heart. that i need to accept things that i couldn't change, that i need to look up and move forward even how bruised i am in this life. yes, that is the way, the cure, for after all in spite of the pain and the sadness, there were points of happiness as well and i have no reason to complain for I'm so blessed and the grace bestowed on me is too much already, so no reason to feel this way, but sometimes i do and i can't help it... where ever you are dad, i wish you peace, i wish you love...today..."the part where you let go" by hem, a serenade for you, for i can't be on your grave for a visit, i can't be there to put flowers...but i have a gift for you and with this i know that you'll be happy and you'll be proud of me. cheers dad! where ever you maybe :) 80 is a good number even if you're not here. yes, 80 is what you are, today...

tested and true

standing tall
after the storm
tested and battered
by the hell that fall
armed in truth
since time that rolled
the one the only one
that made victory
here to be savored

battles in life
make us strong
inner character of ours
will shine and will doom
all false pretenses
that hinder our lives
all make-believes
will bid their goodbyes

tested and true
here you are
with smiles for the win
and laughter that'll last
for you're very true
at the very start
never you played
never you lied

we're just a breeze
for a fleeting moment
we're just a lint
in a shining fabric
it's up to us
to work hard and fight
to stay forever and to be
remembered to last

by those people
that truly cared for us
by these kind souls
that were there
always for us....

what a crooked poem? laughs. but that's all i can come up for now so my apologies to you :)

the next song which is now...will be...

"David Dondero's "Simple Love"... Fresh off being named one of the top ten songwriters alive by NPR in 2006 sharing the list with the likes of Bob Dylan and Tom Waits and being constantly name checked by his label boss Conor Oberst as his main influence, David Dondero dropped Simple Love, a decidedly more upbeat affair than the Bukowski-esque downer SOUTH OF THE SOUTH. The songs have more fleshed out instrumentation, light rootsy arrangements, and bright tempos, which sometimes belie the dark nature of the lyrics, where battles between fleeting pleasures and lasting pains, minor victories and disastrous failures are perpetual. Another classic by a man who seemingly spits out great songs at will."

this is just a copied description of his music, i like it. the love month of Feb. is near you can tell :)

and the best definition of love that i like is, "love is a journey that knows no end" from that diamond is forever commercial :) yes indeed, love if it's true knows no end, except death of course, but some lovers love their loves even if they're dead so this argument of mine is mute :)

and i like love to be simple, funny, and uncomplicated, really. and this is a nice tune for your lady love don't you think? :> to all, no, to some of you guys out there, laughs. but really this music here is truly melodious? or rather melancholy. but isn't it these kinds of music are the ones that bores deep into our hearts and demand our ears to pay attention more? i think so.

ah music, mesmerizing music at that... is a part of my sometimes pathetic life, i must admit *}

yup, this guy is hopelessly romantic, laughs. oh well. although most of his songs is just not good, sorry, but this one is okay :) like that mcgee song of janis joplin. yes, one song, yes, one tune sometimes is all it takes for one talent to get noticed, except, elvis and michael jackson of course. the kings of rock 'n' roll and pop respectively :>

when you dream...

when i was younger and didn't know any better, my choice of a career was to be a stewardess, a flight attendant. i was reminded of it today when i saw Hillary, my idol. but that description is only for younger kids's words to use really so maybe the better term for me is, my hero, right? laughs, when i saw her on t.v. today in a plane taking the microphone and doing the job of a flight attendant in her "hillforce one" campaign plane. now in retrospect, to be a nurse is a lot better, laughs, for me at least, for traveling always in a plane up in the air is not one of the things that really i would want to do now, laughs. plane crashes though rare are just a reality and it happens, so it's not good for me to deal with that reality everyday while I'm earning my dough, although i was trained to serve since i was a teenager by my stepping stone job :) now Angelo Castro said today at Phil. News that what's important in life is where you're going not where you came from. hmn, really? then I'd like to travel more to reach that extra mile, to be a much more use of a person in this world. not like the McCain's of course, at 70, this couple is there trying to be the two most important people next to the Bushes, here in the U.S. although i like John McCain for he's a war hero, i hate that he's a republican although his votes leaned more like he's a democrat in the senate. i really admire when older people are still there and being very very relevant in society and i salute them, plus they look very very good, no kidding. i wonder did botox play a rule? just kidding. hey, do whatever it takes to look good, as long as it's not to the excess, in moderation, of course. for i will do that myself when the time comes :) here in the U.S. in one my hospital's sisters, for there are 7-8 of them, to look good is just a few minutes drive away, laughs. but not right now, not yet, laughs. oh well. and yeah, my dream is to be a much more useful citizen in this world. yes more, meaning to be able to help other people in need apart from what I'm doing now :)

but going back to my dream of being a flight attendant then, it's a glamorous job alright, but in my mind i just can't help to consider it as one dangerous job, and I'm not really fond of flying that much, laughs, i now realized that. so thank God I'm not one. although i salute them for their bravery. imagine putting your life on the line with a well equipped and invented machine that can fly, made of steel. but anything could happen suddenly you know, like a breakdown in its components and parts which is not in your hands to be able to fix and that will be very scary to me, the thought of it, really. what more if I'm there everyday in the thick of things earning my living in the process? this one is not for me, i came to that conclusion and you can have it, laughs. oh well. and besides that job won't want me anyhow, laughs, for I'm only 5'1, too small :) so that's that. and don't get me wrong for i like flying but not doing it most everyday of my life :)

what could God's flower be?

"cadena de amor" with its little pink heart shaped cluster of blooms and heart shaped leaves, it can be a contender. the "chain of love" flower. and pink is love and love is God :) so this pretty flower is in, i would think so :> plus... from our hearts come out love for our fellow man. it's really all about love and you know the month of love is here soon too. so happy love day err love month to all in advance. whether what kind of love you're in right now, laughs. any love will do just fine :) ex. loving your enemy, sounds very good as well...(^_~)...

for you dad... the love flower, for your special day :) taken in a place where you've walked on then. a place that you were once very very familiar with. although physically you've left us, i know that in spirit you're always here with us. always ready to protect and direct us to the right path and steer us from the ugly and the bad things in life. and i have a gift for you as well. same as Jesus, you'll be proud of me :) again, a happy special day for you. i love you...always!

rocking it...

even before death... yes that was what Janis Joplin did. an alcohol drink and a shot of heroin put this lady rocker to her early grave at 27. these two doesn't really mix, like water and oil for alcohol will cause the effect of these prohibited drugs to shoot up to the roof and the result is fatal just what had happened to her. sad, pure talent went to the drain, too early. i came across to one of her music a few weeks ago and posted one of her songs here bec. j.c. and me liked it, while it was being played in the car. this without knowing that she was dead. i did not know the title so i spent time searching it until i finally found it, and i would like to repeat it here on air, in remembrance to this lady singer. here is the tune... "she and her bobby mcgee" aka, jimmy hendrix and her ( janis joplin) ...a love song for the coming month although sad that the girl died here...well, we can't be happy all the time and that's a known fact *}

now it made this song more lovelier to my ears at least. i like it :) now weird for i just noticed that she and my dad's b-date is the same, 1-19...the queen of rock and roll some said, had bid goodbye early. for it was her time to leave even at age 27. death does not discriminate, death don't have favorites, young or old is fair game. we all must remember that. and even then if we forget, we can't escape old age, it will be there before we know it :)

happy b-day to you ms. Joplin as well...wherever you are...

http://www.findadeath.com/Deceased/j/Janis%20%20Joplin/janis_joplin.htm

and i was reading some comments about this song and one goes like this... a male singer first recorded this song created or written for his secretary that he's going to bed with. good lord! a dirty song really, but hey, it's the way it is executed. again, for the lyrics or the reason is just secondary, to me at least :)

you were here

once upon a time
you were here
once upon a time
you're with us

days of dreams
yes they were
days of laughter
smiles and cheer

but just as sudden
as the whisk of the wind
just as fast as a plane
you were gone
you were done
your life's out, it ran

just like
those that went
before you
just like those
that were called
before you

goodbye dear dad
your travel there
must be so glad
your life there now
must be a blast

for your life on earth
was like the birds
that always serenaded us
with loving chirps
for your life here on earth
was like the sun
that put warmth, smiles
and laughter
to our hearts

that's what we
remembered
that's what we'll
always remember
in our minds
and in our lives

you were here
you made a difference
you were here
and you've showed
us how to live

in honor and with dignity
always in happiness and so free
even how tragic and sad
this life can be

yes dad that was you
you were here once
and we thank God
for having you
even how short
the time was
even how fleeting
that happiness was
we always thank God
for having you...

80

that's what you are today
just sad, you're gone
and now you're just
but a memory

sixty years
these magic numbers
that measured
your life on earth
too short but packed
with joy and happiness

dad, mom will be 80
this year
healthy happy
and full of hopes
and love for you still...

happy b-day to you dad
where ever you maybe...

a simple stringing of words for your special day...1-19-'08...the first ornamental cabbage flower is mine from my fall garden. the two, a bunch of fall pink-reddish mums and clusters of summer pink & purple begonias? not sure of the exact name, are taken around Shrine. and the final resting place for my dad, the first two pics...

yesterday...

yesterday is now a memory
but glad you came our way
yesterday is but a memory
we'll take it for there's no other way

so kind and so gentle soul you are
so inventive with a big smiling heart
so lovable and so adorable and so bright
to them your friends and to all of us

go so gently with the wind
fly high soar up above that sky
your spirit quietly floating free
your shadow now is just but a memory

dad we missed you a lot
dad you won't know how sad
you won't know how bad
your absence
made our hearts
cry in sadness
sob in silence
for a long time
now

when will this pain drains
when will this suffering ends
pls. tell us dad... when...

saved by michael :)

yesterday i got good news from the mail, better than a love letter, laughs. the court granted my request not to be a part of the jury selection process this time around. this is my second time to be a part in flesh and blood first hand to serve justice in this american court system which btw i have the duty to do now since i became an american citizen. years ago i was one of the 500 people summoned by the court for jury duty, where if you're selected the fate of the accused will be in your hands. and lo and behold after one week of jury selection, while one by one people were dismissed here i was one of the few still left there sitting, meaning I'm going to be one of the 12 people selected by the lawyers most likely to hear the case. and what do you know, the worst thing happened. i was one of the 12 selected indeed to sit down and listen to the case. good grief. the case then was involving the death of a mexican guy and a black guy stand accused of the crime. i am really very very lucky for my mom saved me from the horrors of listening, looking at the crime scene. i have enough of that in my job although mine does not involve violence. so to make the story short, we are about to begin the process and it will be a long case, 6 weeks of listening to the evidence on both sides. and a last call on the presiding judge came. if there is any that he needs to know from us before we proceed. so i raised my hand and i politely requested for 3 days off from my jury duty for my mom will have cataract surgery that week and being a nurse i need to do my duty to the person who brought me into this world first to be fair to her. and the judge excused me totally from the case! wow! what a relief. i can hear sighs from the defense' side. they really want me there i told myself, laughs. my mom saved me then and Michael saved me now. or else i have no way of wiggling myself out of this suffering, for really it is "the" torture for me. so thank God first and foremost. He is looking out for me. now i wonder what do these lawyers see in me that i can be qualified as a juror, laughs. that is the question, for until now that remains the unanswered question on my part. oh well. maybe they see things in me that i don't see. i really don't know, laughs. but if i don't have these impediments i will of course do my part to serve this country which is my country now. of course i will...(^_~)...and yes, you better believe that, laughs. although i wish i'm in the phil. though, for you know, the judge does that kind of job :> so i don't have to do anything :) but really kidding aside, the presence of your own countrymen there listening to a case is the most fair thing that could ever happen to anyone who stands accused of any crime. they listen, see and hear the evidence, not just one person in which case a judge like in the Phil. who can be bought by sums and sums of money. and that's sad for in this case justice is lost and stolen by that glitter of gold. so poor guy, poor juan dela cruz if that is the case. he'll be stepped, put and pinned down by those who have the money. pobre na nga wala pang hustisya kaya double ang sakit diba. sobra at nakakalungkot talaga, if you think about it. but again i am not so sure that this style of serving justice here will work there either, for if a judge can be bought then what more can you expect for an ordinary citizen there? here in the U.S. you can't even buy a cop. even you're a senator if you're caught and stopped driving intoxicated you will get your dues, for cops can't be bought. they'll write you a ticket no qualms and buts about it, laughs. that is how serious they are here, and that is no kidding :) and why, most of their crimes here are solved except for a very few. so that speaks volume on how they are vent on incarcerating the perpetrators, the bad apples that is. so that is one thing that is really good about this country and i like that.

Feb.'s tune?

for the love month, that is...and Barry White got it good...for the loves of our lives :) nice isn't it? laughs. just came across listening to it on the radio in one of my sleepy drive home. so ladies and gents, to get extra mileage to your one and only one's heart, this might work, laughs. plus those hidden numbers as well, of course...(^_~)... so happy listening? here's the lyrics...

The first, the last, my everything
And the answer to all my dreams
You're my sun, my moon, my guiding star
My kind of wonderful, that's what you are
I know there's only, only one like you
There's no way they could have made two
Girl you're all I'm living for
Your love I'll keep forever more
You're the first, your the last, my everything

And with you I've found so many things
A love so new only you could bring
Can't you see it's you
You make me feel this way
You're like a fresh morning dew on a brand new day
I see so many ways that
I can love you till the day I die
You're my reality, yet
I'm lost in a-a-a a dream
You're the first, the last, my everything

I know there's only, only one like you
There's no way they could have made two
Girl you're my reality
But I'm lost in a-a-a a dream
You're the first, you're the last, my everything

hmn, what lyrics of a song :) the one who concocted this up must be too much in love, laughs. oh well. see? what love can bring. wonderful melody, unbelievable stringing of the alphabet, good execution and voila! a likable song. wow, cupid needs to work harder. that arrow needs to work more. smokingly hot that is, for more music like this, don't you think? :>

the number wonder

the count isn't right
when you did your math
it did not match
you missed the mark

it juggled your brain
it played a trick
for it was nonsense
all filled with deceit

anything that's hidden
is a promise in the air
anything under the table
you can count it's fake

just with a free hand
it's so easy to spot
the one that's open
in front of your eyes

illusions, mirages ever exist
to blind your eyes up to the tilt
then spin you around like in a twist
riding a merry go round up in the air

a mind that's really true
will be there for you
with a big heart and a hug
and a bright smile too :)

Now this reminds me of my dad..."always have a smile" was the message, even how hard life is, even how bad a day is...and this will usually plunged me into a deep reflective mood, although eventually I smile :) See, then, my count wasn't always right, even I'm good at math, laughs. but really all we can do is make sure that one is one, two is two and of course zero means zilch, nada, nothing or let me see, not? or only? or maybe something else, laughs. see even a zero has a lot of meanings like written words with all those mad metaphors and silly similes, laughs. so let's do our math right. if it's not 1, it's 23456789 or 0, laughs. and that few numbers will make your head spin, to what will it be. number is a game? it is to a gambler but are you? for I'm not :) and gambling is a sickness that is psychological and it's detrimental to both your pocket and your head. that's sad if a person does not know that, really. so let's use our numbers right, shall we? oh yeah, it can be manipulated as a code as well for lovers. yup that's true, laughs. oh well. but read my string of words up above. numbers are just tools of make believes, so let's not get caught with it. for if it's not 0, then good luck for there are 123456789 to choose from, laughs. and btw there are more better games out there like helping our fellowmen. like how many in numbers could we come up with at to this point of our lives that we made them smile, made them feel better and help them through a rough day of their lives. for that is the number game that I'd like to play and like to be in :)

and lastly if somebody wants to run around in numbers with us, then be very careful for we have a player in our hands, laughs. not true to us. and you got it from here which seldom there are good things in this blog, laughs, so better catch it, take it and think about it really good...(^_~)... so that number game needs to go in the trash, sorry, but that's where it belongs!

all about love...

and all about sacrifice as depicted in this wonderful image, a painting? maybe. truly a winner! i love it :) done in muted but colorful pastels. it tops all my images here, a favorite.

favorite memories...

...captured in pics :) a beautiful Patar beach, Michael, the Madonna at the side, pink bell flowers and me of course, both pics taken at Shrine. the memories that i love are just as simple like me. there are more, sure, but these are the latest and the ones that i love to look back and see again :) really, so many much more but these are just my favorites, for now at least :)