gone but never forgotten...

thanks Nicole. what a wonderful passage for my departed love ones, my dad who passed away dec. 30th 28 years ago and my husband last april, plus my red bud tree above. a misnomer for its flowers are really pink in color. this tree was struck by lightning few years back. it had little seedlings sprouting around my garden that i replanted them in front and in our backyard. it will take several years to bloom like their mother tree but they will bloom sometime in the future in the spring :)

my family will end this year with heavy hearts but we will continue to live carrying on the happy memories of our missing love ones. we will make the coming new years as happy as we can but it won't ever be the same again as the past years. we will try to pick up the broken pieces of our hearts and of our lives so God please help us...

yourself is the greatest gift...Jesus

what will be your gift for Jesus...

is it how you lived your life
a midst the struggles
of the daily grind

is it how you treat your
fellow humankind walking
with them with an open heart

or is it the offer of the
greatest pleasures of your life
that you now deny

is it the thorns in your hands
the wounds in your feet
as you walked in this life

or is it the glories, the laurels
the pains and the tears
that made you who you are...

a gift is a token of our love. a gift is us giving of ourselves to the causes that inspire our lives. Jesus is the inspiration, so what have we done to make us worthy of living in this earth no matter how long or how short these years may be. life is a gift from God so that gift should be treasured like a precious stone, like a precious heirloom, like a precious song or whatever is the most dearest to our hearts...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR LORD JESUS :) ...I am happy because of your birth... I am happy because of your help...THANK YOU :>

it is just the sad part of living that at some point in our lives there are some love ones missing during His holy birth like we will all be in the future. we can not live forever but we can make memories that will last for a lifetime. happy new year to the few that visits me :) may it be the very best yet ever!

above image is the presence of the magi and their presents. nothing can bet this combination...for yourself is the greatest gift... to Jesus, to others and to yourself as well...so would you want to wrap that present divinely? after all it is you inside that gift :)...to you anonymous artist, thanks for your very beautiful art, my wall paper forever :)

eternal flame...

at Jesus birth...

some would go to the beach
to reflect life's worst and best
some would spend it inside
a church to pray and to be
with the king of kings

some will go to a final
resting place the cemetery
to spend it with their love ones
who had left this earth
like we all do someday

some will go to far away exotic places
that their hearts desire and wish
some will be with their new loves
professing love for each other
near that warm fire light

Christmas will not be here forever
the truth and a fact of life
to God's creations, all of humanity alike
the divine birth will only be
celebrated if you are lucky enough

lucky enough to have the ticket of life
given by Jesus Christ the celebrant
a ticket to live another God given year of your life
a golden ticket for the young and the old alike
a precious golden ticket that most of us desires

so to us that are still alive
let's not ever forget that...
in one of the coming years
this divine holiday will be beyond our reach
will be beyond our touch or grasp...

christians of all generations celebrate His divine birth each on their own ways, young or old. to you who are midway there or almost there into old age it is just a matter of time, do not worry you'll get there too, laughs... IF God is merciful to you :) ...and to the younger generations, do not live in illusions. youth is just a fleeting thing. youth will turn into old age as it has always been as it has always had. it's just the cycle of life...

night and day, baclaran church... the arch that inspired my donated gate :)

night and day is to old and young
top to bottom if you deal in ranks
day and night if the difference is large
love and hate if emotion had gone way ward

sunshine or rain is sadness to happiness
smiles and frowns is to no and yes
forward and backward is to progress and defeat
laurels and thorns is to reward and punishment

all of these meant the opposites
stop or go as to die or live
fight or surrender meant hope or failed
loser or winner but we want a gift

positives are more often accepted
negatives are dark foreboding links
stepping up is much preferred
so day and night we must not forget...

HAPPY B-DAY DEAR JESUS :)

we can never say enough thanks...

another year in our lives is almost gone
it came in just a blink of an eye
another year is almost here again
and here we all are...

giving thanks to the life that we share
giving thanks to the moments that we kept dear
giving thanks to the days that filled our lives with
laughter, joy and tears

we say our thanks
to the people that we've met in every way
who filled our days with smiles of ecstasy
we say our thanks to family and friends
who together made our life's journey
quite bearable and quite easy

but most of all we give our thanks
to God above
who is the infinite
source of love and light
and the source
of great guidance

thanks for all the days
that you've smiled at us
thanks for all the days
even with the bad
thanks for every breath
that puts us here alive
thanks for all the love
you've always gave at us

though everyday should be a thanksgiving day
every almost end of November we pray
to say our thanks that we are still alive
to live another day, another year of our life...

we must always thank God for everything that we have...

it's not about us...

In life it is not about us. it is all about those whom we tried to help along the way in our life's journey. that's happiness unsurpassed. my registered charity here in the U.S. my way to give back after all what God has given me. we already started feeding the homeless. our website is in construction. my husband's death slow down its progress for I have to get some necessary paper works fulfilled. it is a registered charity done several years now and we want to do more to help others who are in need. i think this is just the right job for me after my nursing career :) and yes, there will be an aid a life philippines, like there is red cross every where. although we are just starting in a modest way, we dream big to aid others in life. maybe this is just what i need to end my blogging, maybe...

our mother of perpetual help in baclaran

thank you dear blessed mother, dear holy Jesus and our dearest father in heaven for the help and for the miracles big and small...

i can't contain the rolling years
as i can't stop a running train
i can't rein the pouring rain
as i can't stop a flash of lightning

what i can do is to accept the days
to accept the nights without complain
i will rise as the sun peeps
as i will bow as the sun sets...

i felt very blessed in my life because of my faith in God. that is where my rock stands. no one can harm or touch you if you are with the realm of the divine. they may try to put you down, play you for fun but it will all be in vain. there are failures, disappointments and sadness in life but it won't last for long because God is with you all the way. He sends His divine light which guides you into the right path and into the right way. in my life it's always been like that. so needless to say i am very grateful and very thankful. with a deceased husband recently and a special autistic son to take care of, life is very challenging to say the least. but JC, Michael and me will make it... it is thanksgiving month and i can't really say enough thanks for the blessings that God has given me already. except to live everyday with God in my mind and in my heart, every step i take, every breath i make and every day i live...

the sands of time

slowly it blows away
under the sun kissed sky
slowly it travels with
the wind howling at times

slowly it mixes with
the music and the wine
slowly it hides with
the wrinkles in your life

slowly until the dark
swallows it in time
never to return again
for it moves only forward

until it's gone...

time like life is measured and time like life we can never contain... "ultime amour" richard clayderman...soulful, sweet music. it touches the heart...

the BOTTOM LINE in life is...no bad words, no bad thoughts,...for the words that comes out from our mouth and our brain defines WHO WE ARE AS A PERSON BIG TIME :) for God is an all knowing GOD :) ...this is not a secret...plus yes you AID A LIFE...i do... making an impact in more ways than one...in advice giving that some people take it wrongly, still i am pleased that i cared that much to do something :)

so when ending anything I'd like our mother to be involved. when a blog ends would it be absolutely nice if that last image is Jesus with Mary. i owe that much to her. so when this blog ends i have a beautiful image already in hand...(^_~)...checked.

thanks dear holy father for your visit :)

pope francis is a great inspiration to a lot of us...saint francis' "make me a channel of your peace" is one beautiful song... i bet this is the pope's favorite tune for he named himself after this saint :)...hope to visit the vatican in the future with my family...

the pope and the prez. one of a kind human beings. i hope that their partnership to end global warming will make a dent in preserving our planet. God gave us this house from the universe so we need to take care of it for future generations to come.

great people do great things with the grace of God of course. for after all everything comes from Him. the pope is the head of the church, saint peter's successor, the first pope. the saint who refused to be crucified heads up like Jesus for he said that he is not worthy to be crucified like Him heads up. so they crucified him heads down per his request. what a man of faith, conviction and love for Jesus. he died for our Lord like our Lord died for us.

we turn on our faith
when everything
is down and dark

we say our prayers
when our hope
is fading fast

faith is like the sun above
it shines and guides us as we wade
through the thick forest of our dear life...

the power of love, sang by celine dion, played in piano by richard clayderman. the power of love is a leap of faith that one can do the impossible. one can fly above the clouds. one can go down the ocean deep. one can soar like an eagle's flight. as one can conquer all her wishes and dreams...if you have faith in God...

his address to the U.S. congress was so powerful. i hope and pray that this is the beginning of change in how the poor are treated, the welcome of immigrants, legal or illegal, they are humans with heartfelt aspirations for a better life and the respect of the rights of the unborn child...

i did shed a tear when he landed here last tuesday, it is an inexplicable feeling of joy. like God came into our country in person, flesh and blood. and that small fiat car he rode with is a sign of humility. we should emulate this pope. he is the voice of God here on earth in our present time. we are very lucky to witness this extraordinary event in our lifetime...

arts, beats & eats...HAPPY B-DAY DEAR BLESSED MOTHER :)

the yearly arts, eats and beats... royal oak, michigan...fine cuisine, highly rated art displays, and 200 bands play in 9 stages...PLS, CLICK THIS LINK...this is how america celebrates its labor day weekend. 4 days, friday, saturday, sunday and monday...even bands from japan played on this festival the past years...ford sponsors it and the rest of businesses around including my employer :) who owns 9 hospitals in this great lakes state. yes, we are surrounded with 5 great lakes, hence the name... lake michigan which borders with chicago, lake superior on top, lake huron, lake ontario which borders with canada, and lake erie...the 5 great lakes of north america...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR BLESSED MOTHER!!!...my mom had a cut baclaran picture of you and Jesus taken from a calendar when i was young ...this cut picture was placed in the wall i slept in our house in the province, so everyday that i woke up you were there and up to this day you are here in our house...thanks for the strength to carry on with life, thanks for the intercessions you've given in my life, lots and lots of them. i can't repay you in kind but you are always in my heart...

yes, philippines once more :)

"for the 3rd time and counting, my family loves me :)"...and i only travel economy class under the seats where my family sits for that's what 400 USD gets you...but i don't mind... in my travels i only encountered one small dog. seems like species like me and the rest of the human pets do not travel that much...one of my family member hates it when they broadcast her name all over because they wanted my travel papers. yes, that is one down side of you tagging me along so you just have to suck it up, laughs...i also went to patar beach but it is sooo hot that i started panting real bad that my family have to go home early. after the air conditioner on the van was turned on i was relieved. i never had heat stroke yet and that was it i think ;)

surprise! patar beach is crowded now because there are vendors with stalls around. it made it not that much appealing to me. next vacation we will go to a much more private one, the one owned by my family's brother and maybe we can go and visit one aunt that is still alive who lives in an island for now you can get into that place by car. before it was by boat only...

i know, i know my family loves the beach but i started to pant now because of the humidity and that scares my family a lot ;> or maybe i am just getting old, laughs. oh well...

gone with the wind

the wind is a silent thief
it swallows and steals time
it grabs us all eventually
and most certainly in its path

that's our lives' historic reality
whether we like it or not
unlike the waves of the ocean
we will never come back

gone with the wind
as it soars above the sky
flying with it all gone spirits
reuniting them with God...

for all of us being up there with the wind is just a matter of time... sometimes sooner, sometimes later. life is short as it is timed. "gone with the wind" they don't make any more classic movies today like this wonderful film starred by clark gable and vivien leigh. a very spectacular movie as it is grand. all the actors and the actresses good and popular as they were once, now they all have left and passed away which we will all be in the same predicament someday, somehow...gone with the wind, gone with our lives... turning us all into memories, to be lovingly remembered or not...gone with the wind as our planet turns, like the invisible wind we move on with our lives... visible now but we will all be like the wind, invisible when the time comes... maybe days or years from now...but let's hope and pray for a long life, i am :)

gone ;? so where did they go ;> i meant the rats and the flies that i am so interested in to catch for an appetizer :)... hisoka saya's pics as of today...now please do not disturb for i am thinking err using my brain to figure that out...how cute is that :)...

it is amazing that communication is so easy these days. all you need is a computer, a tablet, a phone. you can express yourself in a blog which is a tool to open up your inner self, to record who you are although not completely,  but it is a start...so thank you blogger :>

The Star of Bethlehem will be visible tonight for the first time in 2,000 years...

On June 30th, Jupiter and Venus will be merging into what is known as a super-star. The conjunction of these two planets has been building throughout the month of June and the result will be a dazzling bright spectacular on June 30th. Sky & Telescope suggest that a similar rare conjunction of Venus and Jupiter may have been what was known as the “Star of Bethlehem” in 3-2 BC and since then there has not been a brighter, closer planetary conjunction. That means that this is the first opportunity of seeing it so clear for 2,000 years!

Jupiter and Venus are the two brightest planets and are often visible from most large city centres.
Throughout June, in the West it has been fascinating to watch the distance between the planet Jupiter and Venus reducing. Yesterday Jupiter was approximately the width of the moon away from Venus and tonight (June 30) the distance will reduce by half when Jupiter passes directly above Venus. Venus and Jupiter will appear to be approximately one-third of a degree apart from one another. If we put our little finger up to the sky both planets would disappear behind it. As the two stars appear to merge together they will look like an extremely bright and brilliant double-star in the night sky.

It is definitely worth a trip outside and if possible take along a pair of binoculars or a telescope for a better view. A good camera with zoom is also a great idea to capture this very rare sight. When planet or star gazing it is always better to go to an area that is not lit up by streetlights as the darker the area that surrounds on earth, the more visible the spectacle is in the sky. Plus, we need to hope we have a clear sky so the view is not obstructed by clouds. The best time to see the planets is not long after it has gotten dark and we need to be looking to the West-Northwest to view them. Dr Hartigan explains, “After about two hours for most latitudes the objects will become difficult to observe as they begin to set. They are bright. You might mistake them for airplanes. ”Don’t miss this dramatic, rare and magical opportunity.

Many Christians see The Star of Bethlehem as a miraculous symbol of the birth of Jesus, however, there are many who see it as an astronomical event, such as, a pulsar, nova, comet or a conjunction that occurred at the same time as the birth.

Ancient Greeks, Romans and Hebrews believed that astronomical phenomena signified events that would happen on Earth, for example, the birth of important rulers or heroes. Eastern Orthodox Churches and others view the Star of Bethlehem, which led the Magi, as an angel or supernatural being. They believe the angel was sent by God to present a guide for the Magi so they could find the way to the Christ child and lead the world to the dawn of a new light of knowledge.

this article is from the www, thank you :)
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red cardinal

A cardinal is a representative of a loved one who has passed. 

When you see one, it means they are visiting you. 

They usually show up when you most need them or miss them.

They also make an appearance during times of celebration as well as despair to let you know they will always be with you. 

Look for them, they'll appear.

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I have this cardinal bird tweeting in the pine tree at my window for several days now. it made me cry. above image is from the www. beautiful...

gate's yearly maintenance...

new steel fence that protects the plants from goats eating them... new santans and new king sago palms...really what i do for my former elementary school that shows my dedication and devotion :) if you donated a gate then it is a given that you are also responsible for the upkeep and maintenance so that's what i am doing...love never stops...after all my name is up there so i have to own what's necessary to make it nicer to look at, won't you ;? besides i love plants and flowers... their presence anywhere is definitely a paradise...

that's more like it :)

let's make it colorful and happier from now on :>...image is from the www, thank you...

blue hydrangeas, flowers that came from my dearly departed husband when we first met. yesterday i saw these flowers at the foot of Jesus at the Shrine of the Little Flower Church and it reminded me of him. now i know why it was in the color blue...

a secluded beach

this is what i want in a beach... secluded, private and you are alone by yourself...to think, to measure, to evaluate and to reflect who you are as a person. to think of God, your family and your friends. to plan the future, to make use intelligently of your God given life, the remaining years of it however so many. to aid a life in short...pic is patar beach, in bolinao, pangasinan, not mine... but TY to you who owns it for sharing...far from the pics i have taken of patar beach. maybe it was taken way back when it was really a quiet beach or maybe it is on the other end of this lovely beach...i dunno, but what i know is this pic makes me very happy :>

so few things these days make me happy. if you lose a husband, you lose a part of your life...people say you still have your children. yes, true and i am very thankful for them to God :)...we can go on with our lives but his memories will always be with us until the end of our times on earth...he was far from a perfect husband but he was what we had and btw his dad introduced me to him, his name was Jose, a nurse who graduated at U.P. and was the highest official of the University of Pangasinan, the director of this university then during his times. i was new here in the U.S. not owning a car yet so i took the bus one day going downtown and while waiting for the bus there was this old filipino man walking towards me. and he said "naning i have a boy for you" and it was tito, my husband he was talking about...and i took that as a sign from God...i was 31 yrs. old then. i came here in the U.S. when i was 26 years old. so it did helped when your dad will find you a wife, laughs. i went to his funeral and there i saw my future husband. really i never meant to marry yet, then. i thought that i still have a few more years to enjoy life as a single person but it wasn't meant to be...we named JC from his paternal grandfather, Jose Carlo, in honor of my father in law...so it was not love who found me a husband. it was mr. jose olegario, sr...or saint joseph...

don't chase the sunset...

don't chase the sunset
for it is futile and useless
let's chase the sunrise
for it will be bright for awhile

darkness will follow
if you play at sundown
the moon's light is borrowed
while you dream of tomorrow

sunsets are rest time
sleep and quiet time
nothing will happen
for every body is beholden

creatures will be dreaming
of illusions that won't happen
let's wake up and remember
that sunsets are the end

in sunrise lies the real time
you'll see the truth and the real task
you can't tell in the dark
if games are being played at

but in sunrise the sun
will take the mask out
void of fake covers and colors
for the sun's rays will shine out...

image is from the www. beautiful, thanks for sharing :)

sunset signals the dawn of a new beginning...

you dragged your feet on to the door
it is heavy, your legs won't move
you were where you've been
but the job is not done, not yet
so you search for a new beginning
turning the leaf, turning over the pages
turning your life into a new day
with new shoes to wear and to walk with
to a new direction, new path, new light
new river to swim, new forest to roam
new waterfall to enjoy and bathe from
as you bid farewell to the past
as you thank for the brief encounters
that changed your life forever

what more of the long ones

so you are forever grateful

to God for bringing them to you...

Happy B-day dear Jesus...

Thank you :)

sunsets are closures but they pave the way to new sunrises, new hopes and new ways. a departure sort of, but it is a start of a new journey which when you look back you should have done it sooner. you should have been happier sooner but better late than never. you'll get there anyways...just the same...

the seasons of love

one day i woke up
and the keepsakes are gone
all curtains are drawn
the sun's light can't come inside

these waving, falling, colorful leaves
as tears are dripping down
yes, summer is just too fast
this heartaches filled world of us

autumn is really chilly cold
some rainy days with light frost
the coming winter is white
silence as the skies' ice flakes fly

landing on your numb face
outside your window pane
clogging your beaten path
and at the roof of your house

all the seasons of love
fresh new, sunny bright, golden and light
all live from moment to moment
spring, summer, autumn and winter night...

seems like love comes and goes like the season...that's not real love though. true love is here to stay until life's end, until sunset and till the next break of dawn...

time eats lives

it ticks and ticks and ticks
lives line up to board in it
hurry and enjoy the apple
few bites then torn into pieces

young spring then summer glows
favorite colors of the rainbow
adorned autumn's beautiful view
then frozen by winter's ice cold claw...

birth, maturity, old age then we all bid adieu. not a secret. not an illusion, a reality that to a lot it's hard to swallow. the more old, classic movies i watch at TCM. the deeper i felt about the reality of living and its ending...kinda sad but i feel happy in a way for that understanding. indeed truly time eats lives

global warming is here. the american sycamore tree in front of our house is still green. more than 2 decades ago most of its leaves were fallen on the ground by this time of year. it is already autumn but it is still green all around. not that i am complaining but year after year it seems like fall takes its own sweet time in coming over :)

water denotes spiritual cleansing in the bible in metaphorical form...

the music of our lives...

music is a rose with its thorns sticking out waiting to be plucked
music is a nectar filled honeycomb formed by the buzzing bees around
music is a salt hidden in sea water that flows on the shore by the beach
the taste of the bitter melon plant that special kind of gourd

see music is not always mesmerizing after all
it is solemn and sad, but sweet and soulful like the night
it is bright, clear like the sun and crisp like the wind passing by
lonesome like the wide eyed owl staring at the disappearing moon in the sky

now the question is, what music do you prefer, what music do you like...

it is a sign of how scarred is your life
it is a mark of how sad you'd become
it is a diary of how happiness ruled your past
it is a choice of your future that you alone can decide

so music is a choice of our ears and our minds
a choice of the future path in our lives
then after that we can hum and we can dance
we can sing the lyrics... for that is the music of our lives...

nothing...

i am grown up but why is the sun so high to grab
i am tired almost half of the time on earth to live
but why can't i tell you that my life is a blast

are all the things that i have i did not sweat
are all the days that i have i did not helped a lot
are all the moments i borrowed from God is a waste of time

tell me how to make my remaining years
not filled with complaints, pain and tears
tell me how not to burden my loves that i lived in vain

will i go off the road and take the unusual path
will i jot down some unconventional plans
that no one yet has set their foot prints from

yes: words, words, words, quotes, quotes, quotes
they're useless and nothing IF IT IS NOT YOUR OWN
plow the fields, row the boat and turn that engine on

everyone have it in their brain and soul
some are laid to them in silver platters
that their own workers envy and secretly adore

some will have to shed their blood
to reach their goals for you're nothing
if you just dance, dance, dance there on the floor

spending the money that you didn't fight for
that you didn't earn, that actually you didn't own
for others had worked for you, others had sweat for you

and nothing is tasteless and useless
and nothing else matters if you dance
on the music that it is not your own

your maid is holier in the eyes of the Lord
for they serve you with all their loyalty
love and trust with their own sweat and blood

the security guards are better standing still
ready to defend you when danger looms
where are you in all of these? the Lord will ask...

belittling maids and security guards instead of loving and respecting them...if you changed your course thanks a lot... if you did not...just do not say bad words that should be good enough :) yes, i hope that boost of an ego from a secret love one would help...let's pray :)

where there is pain there will be gain

if you worked hard
you will have your reward
if you're trustworthy
you will find your glory

people remembers
if you are faithful to the rim
for lies are poisonous sharks
that can kill and bite

you'll reap your rewards
with perseverance and spark
you'll find the sun smiling
when you're forever kind

everyday is a journey
with new roads to see
every dawn is an opening
for the sun to spread its bounty...

somewhere in time...

theme song of the movie with the same title, filmed in my state at the time of my arrival in the U.S...starred by jane seymour and the late christopher reeve... a movie classic, one of my favorites. life is a movie...superb, wonderfully played piano piece, thanks maksim :)

IT ENDS AS IT DID BEGIN, WITH MUSIC...

inner thoughts, inner feelings
undying melodies, eternal hymns
they played, they reverberates

the alpha and the omega
birth, death and in between
stories told as these music airs

sad, tear laden, melancholy
wild, loud, unending verses
lyrics a puzzle or direct

nevertheless a priceless past time
worth your while, worth the moon, the stars
worth the sun, and your days and nights...

SOMEWHERE IN TIME...

somewhere in time
where the waves of the ocean
meet the shore i found you

somewhere in time
when the sun was bright
without clouds in the sky there you are

only to leave like we all do
only to say goodbye
only to bid adieu for eternity

only to be remembered
but never to be forgotten if we're lucky
for the rest of our lives...

we all live somewhere in this life's time machine as it drives along or as it rolls along moving through the years maybe accompanied by the music of that time, 100 years ago or 100 years to come. there will be music of the future as there was music of the past. yes, we will all be gone with the wind, gone as time leaves us by. thanks for a blog like this for we can now leave a mark of who we are.

in the meantime as we enjoy this precious gift called life which was given to us by God, i wonder what will the future brings. i can only hope and pray to Him that it will be more of joy and more of fun for that is what i want like everyone else :)

mother angelica's life's quotes

"we can not put off a change of life for tomorrow or old age, for there maybe no tomorrow"...

we can go on living thinking that it might not work but how will we know if we did not try...thanks mother. at 92 you are not only living a life full of years but a life full of task that you have extra ordinarily had accomplished. a life dedicated to God like the pope's life. a life meant for the divine. a life full of inspiration for us...

Mother Angelica is the founder of the EWTN, the Eternal Word Television Network where we can hear mass everyday if we can not attend mass at church for some reason or another. It has millions and millions of Catholic viewers around the world...

please click here for her 18 quotes... 

perhaps...

                   

perhaps life is just a moon beam
that passes by so quickly
perhaps love is just a movie
void of truth and reality
and time is like a thief
that steals your vitality
and time is like a river
that flows so endlessly

then what can you hold onto
when the sun is at its end
just memories of each moments
of laughter, sadness and the rain
just memories that flew away
when your kite is off your sight
just memories of love you thought
you had it in your heart

they're all just memories now
that you can leave behind
as you close your door
as you take your steps out
without looking back
at the windows of your life
that you opened up so many times
without regrets, without a doubt

as you walk out into that beach
at the crack of dawn when the sun
is about to rise, listening to the waves
reminiscing the past good times
as your feet feels the fine, sandy shore 
you wonder about the future to come
as you welcome new beginnings
new hopes, new days of your new life...

let's chase the sunrise

let's chase the sunrise for it will be bright for awhile
let's plan the journey for it will be over the hills and the valleys

we'll fly above the sky into heights we can only dream of for now
let's bring the triumphs, the laurels and the plaques of life

filled with boundless hopes, heaps of faith and heartfelt desires
tomorrow's fulfillment is just days and our heart's beat to count...

dreaming is living, living is loving and loving is the key...you loved it so you did it...above image is from the www, thank you...poetic verses remind me of anthony bourdain and his quote "i am the poster boy of alcoholism" sure does because in his programs it is all about the food and the drink, laughs...sorry tony, but still we love you ;)

divine dimensions...

i could have selected a flower in bloom
i could have picked a beach or a sand dune
but i've chosen the most important of all
the holy family that guides us to make
always the right decisions...

loving the divine is loving the one who made the ultimate sacrifice for us and that is what true love is all about. let the divine stand by our side and really the answer to our problems is the divine. we need to carry our own crosses, light or heavy. we need to recognize that looking out rather than looking in is the way to go. the magic of happiness? is to help others, aid a life so to speak. lose yourself to others and you will find happiness. we all know that love brings pain and  happiness. here's how love is defined by the divine...1 Corinthians 13:4-7...⁴ Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. ⁵ It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. ⁶ Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

stand by me, playing for change...the best song ever!...when musicians unite their created song is divine :)...

this beautiful art is from the www. thank you for sharing. the current music is "the power of love" by richard clayderman in piano...love, life, faith, friends and family. happiness is hidden in each one of those. if we realize that time owns us all and time takes all of us away sooner or later it is harder to be happy and yet even how brief our lives and happiness are we'll just have to take it for we don't have any other choice. one second of a smile, one moment of happiness is a lot better than the opposite. in other words...joy is the choice...(^_~)...and that's a no brainer...

how would you end a blog
will you just forget it exists
and leave all behind you without
looking back

how can you keep
all the memories that you
formed and woved without
holding back

you may just close the door
behind you and shut
all the windows without
reopening them back...

it sounds so easy but today is today and tomorrow will be a different day and a different mind frame. the reason why i can never win in ending this blog. but truthfully we are all losers for life is just a fleeting thing, happiness is not forever as all human kind will come and go. all will have to leave like doors that are closing but unlike doors, we can never reopen our life back...once it's gone, it is gone...that's why life is precious as it is divine...let's cherish life and not abuse it, let's love life and not hate it...for God is life and God is love :)

romance of the north sea

the sea, music, love...what else could be better?...friends, family, life and God :)

good times never fades
good deeds are often remembered
good melodies will not be erased
as good songs will always be in our play list...

timeless tunes as music is truly magic... the next tune is "the power of love" by richard clayderman, my favorite piano artist next to newell oler. for some reason something is being done to blogger that i can't use my music player at this time. hope it will be soon... but love is the most powerful emotion. we were redeemed of our sins by Jesus because of it. we make sacrifices, walk that extra mile because of love. at the same time love brings sadness to humans. yes, if they can not have the apple of their eyes due to some reason or another such as hindrances like age, status in society, one is rich and one is not...though always remember love conquers all...so stay positive always... who knows the goodness of our Lord will make your dreams come true as He did mine in so many times :) yes, there are loses but that's how life is, we win some and we lose some for it is not meant to be. it is as simple as that...so let the power of love propels us to a much more higher plane. on top of that mountain, into the deepest part of that ocean or on to that highest part of the sky...maybe happiness will be waiting for us...maybe...

maybe we don't deserve it ;? for we are given much already and we never had the chance to do it on our own, to stand on our own 2 feet but that is just an alibi. those who started with nothing did it. so there is something wrong with us, maybe...we think of ourselves all the time and nothing else...think of others, your neighbors for a change...

we had it better than the rest. a job, a social network, still we are unhappy. why ;? maybe because there is a reason that only us primarily knew. like we do drugs in the dark. drug is a powerful reason of failure. it is a doomsday mark for the younger generation. once you're in there is a minimal chance of you getting out on its clutches. it is a sign of weakness to those who fall prey to its honey aka venom...yup we are only humans, but not all did fall prey to drugs so why did you...there is something wrong and it is a lame excuse to blame your life for others had it rougher than you, so maybe it is you to blame ;?...maybe...

and yes, you thought that you're superior, maybe by the count of the books that you've read, by the hefty purse that your family has that you are just added as an owner because of blood. did it ever occur to you that you're just not an original kind, you need to read others account of the world rather than create or find your own...you are just a mere catcher of other's wealth and it is not on your sweat and blood that this dough had came by. to others you're lucky but to the wise it is a breed of low self esteem for there's no pride of accomplishment here for you... so maybe this is why happiness is hard to find, maybe...

and a psychologist or a psychiatrist won't help, because really we are all psychologist. we analyze people and make an impression of them right or wrong with just the datas before us without knowing them personally like what i'm doing here. so ergo, the conclusion is up in the air for you need to know people personally and first hand to have an accurate reading of their lives, no ifs nor buts ;)...and all that goes around comes around...if you do good, good will come your way and vice versa... after all we have a knowing God up there who is always looking at us and knew all what is in our hearts...

memento mori...

Memento mori (Latin: "remember (that you have) to die"^[2]) is the medieval Latin theory and practice of reflection on mortality, especially as a means of considering the vanity of earthly life and the transient nature of all earthly goods and pursuits. It is related to the ars moriendi ("The Art of Dying") and related literature. Memento mori has been an important part of ascetic disciplines as a means of perfecting the character, by cultivating detachment and other virtues, and turning the attention towards the immortality of the soul and the afterlife. yes, how sad...but life's end is dying. so let's enjoy life while we can. let's smile more while we could. let's love Jesus always by helping each other and not hurting each other. in other words as time ticks away, life ticks away as well...as we who believe in heavens it meant that it does shorten the time that we will see God and all our dearly departed and beloved relatives and friends.

how will it end...

in the beginning it starts with a cry
with lots and lots of laughter in between
as we grow and grow older everyday
then it ends with the sunset in the west
it dims till we can't open our eyes anymore
as we drift in eternal repose
with God our heavenly Father by our side
with our departed love ones to welcome us by...

see.. dying is not bad after all. it is just sadness at first glance but it will be happiness at last... "memento mori" it is JC's signature on all of his emails he said since 2006...and i did not know it till today...this boy is something else, laughs...okay his dad just died last april so please God help us...

divine chapel in the sky

the chapel of our second saint, San Pedro Calungsod at SM Aura in Taguig. located on the 7th floor with a beautifully landscaped garden around...

in loving memory...

 

memories of our love ones...

Frosted flakes in that window pane,

Sturdy stems of evergreens,
Wind swept shadows in my window glass,
Peeping softly and as silent
As my beating heart...

these shadows are our love ones visiting. my dad and my husband are on the same place on earth and in heaven now. Tito your wish has been fulfilled, you and manong Oscar are on the same grave. The longest days are the 2 days we waited for my husband's viewing in the states. I arranged his funeral services only less than half a day but here in the Philippines it took forever to complete all the paper works of him and his brother to be buried at Eternal Garden...it is an ordeal...I thank my family, relatives, HS classmates, co-workers, our unit manager and friends for their support in my family's time of sorrow and despair.

we used to take the middle seats of the plane four of us. now we take the window seats. It is a torture to see your husband suffer after a debilitating stroke. I never expected this to happen but life is a puzzle that can only be solved with each passing days. we carry on with our hearts broken. we will try to smile in spite of the void, in spite of the tears...

to my beloved husband...

 

"God's Garden"

God looked around his garden
And found an empty place.
He then looked down upon the earth,
And saw your tired face.

He put His arms around you
And lifted you to rest.
God’s garden must be beautiful,
He always takes the best.

He knew that you were suffering,
He knew that you were in pain.
He knew that you would never
Get well on earth again.

He saw the road was getting rough
And the hills were hard to climb.
So He closed your weary eyelids
And whispered “Peace be thine.”

It broke our hearts to lose you
But you did not go alone…
For part of us went with you
The day God called you home.

Author: unknown 

we will always love you...

the problem with goodbye

exits, heartbreaks and goodbyes
partings are when you cry
memories will only be at your side
when all of us will leave and die

we are all terminal cases
why do we still live, i do sometime ask
if at the end we will only leave our love ones
with gaping hearts to nurture and to mend...

it is a struggle and with much heavy heart to see my husband in a comatose and unresponsive state after his 3rd stroke. i am forever grateful to God and him for his dedication in taking care of our special need, autistic boy Michael. it is in God's hands now. we don't want him to go but if it's God's will there is really nothing that we can do than to cry our hearts out...now i realized that JC is a lot stronger than me...

our mother of perpetual help...

our faith in God means everything. miracles do happen, God will always provide...at our back are the images of our virgin mother, also known as our lady of fatima, our lady of the immaculate conception, our lady of lourdes in france, our mother of perpetual help in baclaran and here in our place... and other various venerated names...

may pope francis' visit bring inspiration and hope to my native land...thank God for the hope and the miracles...our faith in God always sees us through in our lives' difficult moments...

 "Aid A Life" always...