the sadness that is michael jackson

reading about the preliminary autopsy report if it's true or not bogus, it just makes me sooo sad and sick. his life is a tragedy even with the trimmings of popularity, talent and wealth. true happiness is just hard to come by in his life in spite of the adulation of millions. joy is truly just an illusion for him, i think. i dunno, words really are not enough to explain or describe the emotions one will go through once one will uncover his true world which is full of litigation, sue this and sue that and the pursuit of perfection which is btw one of his qualities per that zodiac world you know. the price of all the things that was given to him is his life. too stiff of a price i would say for it is too little given time to enjoy living in this God given beautiful planet earth. but who are we to question God's will. we are just humans...

we come to your feast

we come to your feast...

everyday as the sun goes up to reign havoc to the desert
everyday as the wind runs through the hills
as the mountain guards the opening of your door
as the tall trees around surround your fort
they never sway, they never turn black even struck
by the bolt of a fast flashing lightning

with the strength of the rope that binds us
the hurricane will never win
the house will stood there looking upon us
ready to take us and cuddle our tired spirits
anytime we break into pieces or fall on our knees

we come, we pray and we discovered
that the words are true to their meanings
they never wither and never be blown away
by the force of the tongues that are numerous out there
with the sharp of a blade, there are no blood shed

your protection envelopes the moon and the planets
the land after the storm is flat, it is defeated
but the soil washed away by the raging water
will come nutrients will come fruits will come tender shoots
i can now smell the roses

yes, there is God
that guides the turning of the universe
yes, there is God
that we go to in time of darkness
yes, there is God
that hides the mysteries
that doles out miracles
from heaven
there is God that we worship
every day and every Sunday
there is God that made you stand here today
there is God that lights your way forever
if we ask, if we cared, if we trust
if we have the faith in our hearts

yes, there is God
that sees us in any angle
in our nakedness anytime
anywhere, any place and for always...

Our Mother of Perpetual Help...Her Shrine in Baclaran...

the smile of the moon

you have to wait
for it is not the time
you have to close your eyes
then open it
and be entertained
by the weaning light
at that colorful sky
as you watched with awe
as you are mesmerized
with magic
created by the sitting sun

it won't be long
then comes the moon
gently peaking at the horizon
then come the faces after
in varying shapes
full, new or in quarters

round like a coin
in the palm of your hands
round like a ball
a dancing reflection
as you gaze at
the far, dark deep ocean
in front and beyond

then a few days past
comes the shape that
will lit up your face
the moon is smiling at
your tired and weary self
the moon is like an agent
of delight sent by God
the moon is a remembrance
of a love gone by
as if it is saying to you
smile, smile, even if it's only
for a short while
smile until your heart breaks again
smile until you're relieved
from your sadness
of the moment
smile, as my dad
always said
smile, as if your life
depends on it
smile, for it won't hurt :)

smile, the antidote of sadness...and a smiling moon is a sign of goodluck, i read that somewhere :>

note to God by charice pempengco

If I wrote a note to God
I would speak whats in my soul
I'd ask for all the hate to be swept away,
For love to overflow
If I wrote a note to God
I'd pour my heart out on each page
I'd ask for war to end
For peace to mend this world
I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God
I would say what on my mind
I'd ask for wisdom to let compassion rule this world
Until these times
If I wrote a note to God
I'd say please help us find our way
End all the bitterness, put some tenderness in our hearts
And I'd say, I'd say, I'd say

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

No, no no no
We can't do this on our own
So

Give us the strength to make it through
Help us find love cause love is over due
And it looks like we haven't got a clue
Need some help from you
Grant us the faith to carry on
Give us hope when it seems all hope is gone
Cause it seems like so much is goin wrong
On this road we're on

If I wrote a note to God

huh? lovely just the same :>

i need to get that song's translation, laughs. what a dog, he went to great lengths to please his muse :)

the music never fades...

the music never fades
it is only our ears that do
the sun never sits
it is only our eyes that failed

the air is gone
the air had bid
its goodbye
when we tried to breath...

122 years old, yes that is how old a living human being had reached to live according to the news recently. centenarians, the 100 years old club.

why do we hate
because we do not know better
why do we curse
because we forget
that anytime, anywhere
our life will be taken away
and regrets is too late

why do we dream of wealth
more than we need
why do we aspire
to climb the moon
or fly to the sun
or reach the stars
only to give it up
once we die

why...

"DO NOT WORRY" Matthew 6:25, painting w/ light art :)

”Therefore I say to you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?” Matthew 6:25 http://www.flickr.com/photos/marketseq/3167847721/

"Stop the Worry"... last week as i was driving home from work i saw this sign posted up in a bill board by the road... what a very meaningful sign i thought, it made me smile...then 2 blocks later here comes this beautiful church that i pass every time i go to work...we humans tend to worry so much about our lives that sometimes we forget to enjoy life, our very own lives. and i am no exception to that...thanks dear artist for your superb smiling JESUS art. i love it, the best! it looks like Clifton, J.C.'s friend who went with us to the zoo last year :)

CASH CAB...a favorite TV game show

the DAD we've never seen

spoken, written, chronicled
in the holy Bible of our time
we only have one father
and that is God
as told and recanted by Moses
as He gave His commands
at Mount Sinai one night

Jesus spoke to Him
at the end of His life
saying that His will, will be done
it's all in His hands

the planets may dislodge
at their paths
the sun may melt
while the stars may rust
the earth may perish
and the ocean may dry
the sky may fall
and the songs may die
it's all up to Him to decide
as our Father above
the source, the beginning
of all the mysteries of this land

dear Father it's your day today
i wonder what gift you expect
us to give
is our love enough
is our cares enough
is our thoughts enough
to express our
heartfelt thanks...

happy father's day to all good dads out there including my husband, of course...(^_~)...we love you :) just sad that my dad is not around anymore...a smile lost forever...

life's own corrections...

an exaggerated smiling president's artwork. it denotes coins, hmn, i wonder if those are fifty cents coin that i read ages ago, probably. but yes, it's raining money in this administration trying to save the ailing economy here and it is working. the banking system was surely saved from its collapse or downfall or unwanted demise. thanks to the unprecedented bailout cash. sure, life corrects itself...in our economy and in my life as well. i was just thinking while i was trying to whip up some kind of a dinner made up of vermicelli noodles with shrimps, sardines, leeks and petsay with beef and chicken bouillon, yum! i am a noodle freak, pasta, pancit and plus, laughs. yes. i am a good cook, ask J.C. but not my husband, for he cooks his own food, lucky me :) ...here in the U.S. food is abundant, it's everywhere. all kinds of different treats from all over the world that would make your taste buds dance and smile. during special occasions i can't even think of what i want to eat here for there's nothing to want anymore that you can't easily get. yes, a far, far cry from the diet that i was used to growing up which is occasional meat, lots of fish and vegetables which really i think is more healthier than what it is now, so i try to put a lot of salads in between as well... life is a feast or a famine, life is hunger or abundance and I've experienced both worlds...what a life. changes and chances made it happen for me...today, even how poor i am still, i can probably hire a maid or two when i am in my country of origin visiting but i would rather work with my own hands which i am used to since the very beginning of time. that is very humbling and it reminds me of where i came from. nothing is better than to eat with your own life's toils, i read that somewhere. yes, i read but not very much... but i listen and pay attention too much as the tunes take their turns in this blog, my selected music favorites. it is the melodies not the lyrics for it is simply the tune that will capture my attention, first. but if both the tune and the lyrics match, so much for the better :>

the white house...

although this is not really the history channel version about the white house that i just watched for i can't find that in you tube today, instead i have these. less informative, very, i may add, but it is very fascinating just the same. yes, one of the privileged few to call it his residence, in spite of the negativity of his presidency, still he is one lucky man and his family as well :) history, not sad history is what i tend to gravitate towards to in comparison to the holocaust which i can't bear looking at the suffering of those 6 million Jews killed and remembered in these memorials. i just can't stand looking at their suffering for it just tear me apart. i am saddened by the action of this 88 year old man today in one of these memorial centers in Washington. a security guard gave his life to ward off his evil intention of killing innocent civilians with a gun. my sympathy and prayers go to his family. what a shame that too much hate occupies one's heart... for it can be the other way around...

sunsets and sunrises

it maybe a long journey
or it maybe not
it may come tomorrow
or 100 years from now
who knows
you might be
the sunrise lady today
but in a flash
you maybe not
whether you like it
or you dig it
the time will tick
the clock will move
the day will pass...

so enjoy life the best you can...(^_~)...whether you are a princess or a queen. a cougar or what could be the opposite of that, laughs. is it...baracuda? believe it or not, laughs. oh well! watch out madonna, demi moore or dra. b :) i don't think that is a nice term for a nice lovable middle age lady like you all are, laughs. oh well, again. but i know...we need to mind our own business, right? as long as it's in line with God's rule, go for it, ladies :> what can i say, time ticks for the young as well as for the old, no favoritism :) if it feels right, do it...(^_~)...but if it feels wrong, make a U turn, laughs. gosh, i really don't care what other people do for it's their own lives so it's their own call :) now you know my take, laughs.

one unforgettable miracle, one favorite post...1/15/09, 7:15 PM

A MIRACLE happened today...as a plane, a U.S. Airways jet crashed landed on water at the Hudson river in the southern part of Manhattan island in New York City. Every one of the 150 passengers survived plus the 5 crew members while help came so fast from the first responders. A water crash landing that went sooo well. The plane they said bec. of the fuel floated or stayed over water as long as all the passengers were out to safety on board into those safety rescue boats, plus the plane had a ditch switch which will automatically locked the underbelly of the plane to prevent water entrance. A veteran fighter jet pilot was called a hero. Indeed! but he's more than a hero though saving his life and those of his passenger's. Flying flock of geese caused the two engines to fail they said. What a heartwarming story that would really make your day. I've never seen a positive result of a jet crash and over water at that. The plane only flew for 5 minutes for the accident happened immediately after take off. A total miracle truly, I'm very happy for the passengers and their families :) A happy ending to a heroic effort made by an extra ordinary pilot with 29 years of experience. The airline industry tried to let go off these older pilots but they really come in handy in situations like these. The passengers are very, very lucky to have him in this flight. He even went down the aisle for the last time to make sure all were out of the plane safely. What a very responsible and thoughtful man. He needed to be praised and compensated with this act of heroism that he showed at a very trying times such as this. He did deliver when his expertise was called for in such a dire emergency situation. No words is enough to describe what happened today but thanks to God that no one died except for some non life threatening body injuries. It could have been worst and we all knew that. Life prevailed over death today which is not the norm for plane crashes for most of the time it can really be deadly...the passengers are very lucky, indeed :)
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A MIRACLE at the HUDSON as they will call it in the history books now described at CNN. I recall posting a comment a few hours ago before this incident ever happened at Brian's blog that miracles do happen and I truly believe in that...this is the proof... it came so soon unexpectedly but a validation that God truly does give out miracles aside from doing it Himself like walking on water and turning water into wine :) What a good day this is today. I love it and I'm very happy :>

http://www.cnn.com/
http://www.google.com/hostednews/afp/article/ALeqM5jcCp8yeSDtMqJ27rL3mFW5hoArfw

inside the Obama White House...

i really love these...politics, music and a little bit of art... in that order :) yes, a day in the life of the man who is the head of the only super power nation in the world...too much in his plate but with all the help from these very dedicated people around him... mountains may crumble, hmn, i read that somewhere, laughs, the president will surely overcome and won't let us down ever. no goodbyes and being chased by... but will confront the waves of the sea...just in case that said mountain will crumble and fall into the ocean... how's that for a metaphor...(^_~)...

and the light came :)

seeing the light...

the first sudden gasp of air came out through your lungs. the pat on your back must be that hard. your purple colored body covered with white cheesy coat is now turning rosy pink. the blood is now trying to color you. life is here. your new life. before, you were just a parasite in your mother's womb being feed by the bridge of rope made of flesh. it must have been so nourishing that finally you were formed as a person of the world ready to take on and climb the ladder of life. you will try to reach those upper steps one by one. you will try with all your strength and with all your might.

the years moved on. the silver spoon is not around. instead, it is a man made coconut shell as your plate and it is with your hands that you feed yourself. all vegetarian meal with occasional meat twice a month maybe if you're lucky. your stomach must be rejoicing at that point. a fiesta sort of even only it is just a foot of a hock mixed with cabbage, you are in heaven. you very well understood that you were poor. you knew. you walk for half an hour to get to your school. the bus, Pantranco, will meet you at the end of the road. everyone does it. so it seems like it is the norm.

with a gas lamp you did your homework the best you can, every night without fail. it must be the urge to scale that ladder of life then or the competition for you won. you've succeeded. you are the best of the bunch. that made you forget the struggle that you have in your life. so what's next? you look at the picture of our mother of perpetual help which was cut off from a calendar. your mother had put it there on your right side above which is the first thing you saw every morning. you wonder why it is there. at some point your young eyes were glued to that holy picture of a mother holding her son, Jesus. why is it there. watching over you, you thought.

you have an aunt named Maria who cooks for a very wealthy family in manila. they have everything. blonde, Spanish and English speaking, a mansion, very, very filthy rich. it was a feast every time you go and visit her in the city. you were served with food that came from nowhere in your life. now your young mind is getting its life lessons. you are different, you were born poor, now it is really true. the virgin Mary look alike lady noticed you and inquired. your schooling, your grades and she came out with a brilliant idea. she had loads of money, too much that it is just a pinch for her sending you to school, nursing, her own choice for when asked you told her you'd like to be a teacher. but she said they don't make money so her choice prevailed. why go against the person willing to spend money for your education in a big renowned catholic university, the best, with that big garden or grassy space in front. the haves or the rich send their children there. you were blessed. working for her and going to school at the same time, it was a struggle but you made it, after 5 years, a BSN degree. Wow! who could have thought that fate would be so kind to you :) you are very, very grateful, thankful and you would never ever forget that forever in your life. that shaped the who you are today. with God's love, He sent the light on your path and you can only hope and pray and beg really for it to continue for the rest of your life...thank you for your beautiful art dear artist :)

summertime is here once more :)

summer is hot...

winter, with its silence
and coldness that abounds
as if it's telling me
don't speak
for no one is around

spring with its chirping
and singing birds
a nature's lullaby
as if it's telling me
i am happy when you're around

autumn, with its
majestic colorful blends
that binds a heart
as if it's telling me
hold tight for it will fall
and soon it will be gone

but summer
when smiles and joys
are here once more
i hear laughter of children
which i can enjoy
i hear buzzing bees
and smell my roses
my hands' toil

the grass, the greenery
is a sight to behold
summer's spell
summer is hypnotic
the time i was born

summer is hot
summer is here
and summer...
you come first
in my heart :)

all van gogh's art...you can tell he is a favorite bec. he has paintings of the sun, the star of summer :)