Wednesday, December 30, 2009

"malinac lay labi"...a peaceful, calm night...

a pangasinan favorite serenade...i am an ilocana, but i can't find the ilocano version but this will do. wonderful tune, thanks to ms. charmaine's sweet interpretive voice. a song brought alive as it digs the heart. really when you hear a song from your province it makes you reminisce, pause and think. sometimes it makes you sad esp. if you are now in a far away land...

my dad passed away at this time of year as we were welcoming the new year...sadness unsurpassed esp. if you have a dad like mine...death the ultimate divider, death the equalizer between rich and poor people for everyone will go through it, young or old, ugly or pretty it does not matter... death the unmerciful taker of sunshine, smiles and everything nice. death, the end of our physical existence on this earth...love is lost bec. of it. there will be no tomorrows, no rainbows, no stars...death is the final change...i miss you papang, i am sooo sad still esp. when this time of year comes. even how long and how many years had passed the hurt is still there. the emptiness that can never be filled. the loss that can never be replaced. my tears are dripping as i am writing this. my heart still breaks...time do not heal the hurt, it won't and it never will...