Diana, Princess of Love

Icon and idol
is what you are
a life so tragic
a circus so sad
full of compassion
care and of love
selfless enduring
with eyes for the poor
the downtrodden
adorned your life

You had your share
of smiles
you've been all over
world wide
you've been adored
loved, vilified
too busy too short
your life was cut
but you did it all
you gave it all, how wise

Beauty and fame
you've got
sexy and shy but glad
to hold the hands
of aids stricken souls
of sad sick children
lovingly you've hugged
you knew, you saw
that they were there
suffering in life a lot

Sadness and tears
poured out
as one fateful night
popped out
you've died and left
so sudden
so violent
in that dark tunnel
in that dark car
that crashed

So young and
so vibrant is gone
lifeless and cold
still, stiff all alone
just in a flash
you bid goodbye
no more hellos
but your memory
will always be there
in all our hearts to hold

Princess of Love
Princess of Wales
Princess Diana
the people's Princess
in all of our memories
you'll be alive there
forever and for always
until our last words
until our last glimpse
until our last breath on earth...

To Princess Diana, in her memory...

Permanent Goodbye?

To you I bid adieu, my ever dearest dad
Today I print a heart, a red and ready mark
A sign of love to you that will forever last

Those years went flipping by
Like kites flown in the sky
With memories so vivid, so colorfully inclined

You'd always stop to reprimand
Forget to pout or ever put my hand
On that pale face without a song, or ever without a smile

To dress my heart with hope
To push my limits to the roof
And to catch and keep the proof

Well dad here I am today
With head held high so free
For I did not disappoint nor did I forsake thee

With little lasting laurels
I crown my head barely
A few God given gift, one of poetry maybe

Dad today I smiled at last
Of thoughts that you've died
For finally I've realized... that God is at your side...

A previous poem, dedicated to my dad who truly loves a "smile" :)

mystery of the unknown

you hope
you pray
you wish
you believe
that life after
death exists

you wonder
you worry
that faith is
all there is

is life real
out there
is life true
after six
feet down
under?

a mystic smile
like the Mona Lisa
a cynical call
to the Madonna

the beguiling
mystery of life
the baffling
claim after life

that it will be there
that it will conquer
that death is victory
as closing your eyes
will be opening it again

again for all eternity?

waving with the wind

the storm had passed
wrecking havoc to the
land

just as the wind blown
tree forced to the
ground

the roof torn and tattered
with pieces flying from the
sky

scattering, littering
the immaculate vicinity
of the house

waving in the wind
is nature's fury
blowing at your face
a force so free

moving your feet
so strong, sickly
uprooting your body
helpless and carelessly

go, go with the wind
leave, leave with your
memory

die, die a sudden death
ending a life battered, filled
with misery...

The main church...

The church...

posting positively

laurels crowning
your head
is the great glory
of your lifetime
laughter
from your lips
is a sacred sign
of the divine

negativity, suspicion
are dead demons
as lie and deceit
doom your day

winning
is not deceiving
and losing is
faith drowning you
to win is not to lose
to win a deal is coming close
to harvest gold is doing good
being nice and honestly bold

for to lie is to die
in that hot satanic fire
and to grab means to lose
the one that you ever wanted up close :)

It's Fall, again :)

Spooky Squirrel

We were talking about rabbits today in the car as we went out, J.C. and me, to buy pumpkins and treats for Halloween. This boy cracked me up with a story that a friend of his has this rabbit who had 36 babies and he wants to buy one of them. As I've told you rabbits pre-occupy his mind always so when we see squirrels like this one at the church' grounds, he started bugging me again about this pet. Now I asked what's the most a rabbit can have in babies and he said quickly, "easily over 100, mom" What? that many? now that is just too much, I said, laughs. But he said he did his research. Just amazing, and he said, oats and fruits are their food. Oh well. Too much little rabbits just from one, I think. Did you see the red eye of this creature? Spooky, and all just for some camera trick or rather mistake. Hmn,last month we saw a brown rabbit in our backyard at dusk, maybe we can just catch that, laughs. 40 dollars are what they cost here and 4 dollars in the Phil. so I think it's cheaper there, and his uncle has a wide, wide space of a place and a nice hidden garden of a pond with waterfall in New Manila near that former Boracay mansion of Erap. The rabbit will have a ball there of a house I mean :) So to escape buying a rabbit for him, I said that the Phil. is a better place for his future pet, laughs. No winter too :)
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CLICK the last pic, to see the RED EYE :)

New Beginnings after Goodbyes

The house is silent now
the door is closed and shut
the room is empty and bare
just memories floating in the air

Life changes so fast
today is sad and only yesterday
was filled with all that smiles
now those happy days had passed

Tomorrow is a different day
the sun will shine again brightly
where laughter, joy and hope
will be there for us to behold...

This is optimistically speaking of course :) but really it's your own preference, you can be sad if you want to, but for me I always try to be happy. It's hard at times I know but at least I chose to live it in accordance to my given name's meaning of joy, believe it or not. Yeah, sometimes it is very difficult but I would rather be smiling than pouting, laughs. Oh well.

death is silence

silence is death
you don't have to pretend
quiet without motion
skin clammy and cold

rigid, stiff, a body
ready to decompose
eyes shut closed
never to roam

like bridges burned
no one can run
like trust that's broken
faith all gone

lost and forgotten
it will be soon
except for true love ones
who visit once

life is lost
so is great love
like sunny days
turned into dark

rest in peace
you beautiful soul
with unforgotten smiles
we've captured you

for all eternity
till our last breath on earth
beyond that blessed place
we call heaven of happiness

it's all saints' day one more time...

we are all, one

the love you keep in your heart
and friends who help you a lot
the mother who brought you up
and strangers that pass you by

we are one, we are all inter-related
joined by our great Father
we came from Him none other
His creations, in this world

art is the way he made us
from Eve and from Adam
at garden of Eden of eternal love
they lived and saw paradise

we're sisters we're brothers
we're all lovers and related
we're friends that would be better
so in our hearts there won't be the devil... :)

always present

the sun is always up there
never ever absent
the wind is always blowing
inside mine and inside your chest

live, long live the sky
the planet, the universe
the galaxy beyond
alive, encircling, till the end of time

this you can count on
this you can bet on
that it will be there
that it's still there even when we're gone

not unless God decides
that it's time to pass
that it's time to pack up
this earth, this only universe, His created paradise... :)

smooth, silent rides

the winds had died down
the river isn't wild
the water is calm
your boat ride has begun

quiet sailing, silent and upright
except for a few rubs against
the wind against the sun's shine

the boat was made perfect
by diligent experts
you're lucky and blessed
with this one you've possessed

good job that's the message
on this nice equipment
keep it dearly and better love it :)

Seeking mercy and pardon

God forgives so why can't we? In all actions that we do, karma is all there to level us up, I truly believe in that. Mr. Estrada probably is a good example of that. He was given power but it wasn't used wisely. Apparently it was abused so he had to suffer the consequences. I hope others are paying attention. A lesson for all of us. Now let's hope that revenge won't be in the works here, for after all life is not forever. It is timed and it will end. Now it will surely depend on us on how we use our seconds, days or years on earth. Hope it's for the better and for the right not on the wrong road of life...

Human life is the greatest treasure. Then come love ones and our health. Life is but once, hope we live it right, and seek the right path even how sad and difficult, that is...

Thanks for the Magic

All eyes were glued on you
all heads spun with awe
all that unreal, untrue
these tricks you showed us to
you're the best, the only pro

Illusions reigned in the air
even children's ears were there
like music it sounds so real
it captures it penetrates
but only in our dreams

Anyway, thanks for the memories
you've captured us in every way
a passing light a torch so hot
all that time as we watched
all that time while we glanced

A magic which is just that
reality which is was not
just mirages in our minds
just illusions luring us
to be always mesmerized

It's too good to be true
it's only our imaginations we know
but for us it's magic unsurpassed
that it almost caught us alive
but suddenly we did wake up

To tell the difference
that it's just magic in the air
unreal, untrue and merely make-believe...

For the love of baseball

Two elders, 90 years old men have been friends for the longest. This is ever since they were just kids. Both of them shared the love of baseball, that when one of them was at the brink of death, the other one asked and made a request to the other who is dying. This if he could tell him if baseball is being played in heaven. Then his friend died.

One night the living one heard his name being called by his friend who already died. He can't believe that his friend came back bringing him the answer. The dead friend said to him, I have good and bad news for you, my friend. Okay, give my the good news first, said the living friend. So the friend continued, "In heaven baseball is being played, by the young us, we never get old. We never get tired so we can play this game all over again and again as long as we want" said the visiting dead friend of his. Now his friend was all smiles, happy that there is baseball in heaven. Now what is the bad news? he asked. His dead visiting friend hesitated at first and then gently told him, "you'll be pitching in Tuesday"

This story was told at mass today by the officiating priest :)

silence after a firestorm

hot is the day
and so is the night
warm is the breeze
that touched a hand

you see no one
at a quick glance
you see no living soul
to warm a heart

no voice nor song
no sounds of life
just complete silence
as you stand

to look around
to understand
to try to measure out
what had transpired...

when nothing is left

gone are the memories
one dearly cherished
swept by the wind
all turned into ashes

flashes of fire
dark embers of light
so devastating it
killed a life

hopes of the past
down to the ground
forever silenced now
without a chance

piles of dark ashes
all there is left
of all the memories
one's life possessed

will there be light
at dawn or dusk
will there be hope
to pump a heart

will there be a smile
laughter and love
as a replacement
to these, gutted by fire...

Gone with the Smoke

Today's news in California is not good. Fires in 12 different places are going on there prompting an evacuation of a quarter of a million residents and that is too much people being displaced and maybe losing their homes. As I was hearing the news coverage I can't help but feel sad and sympathize with them. Imagine losing your home, a place of memories you shared with your love ones. That is an unimaginable sorrow. Yes, for sure a house and its contents can be replaced but it will never be the same. Gone with that hot wind, with that hot flame and thick smoke are parts of you.

What is happening now in those fires is a clear display of the uncertainties in life. Here today, but gone tomorrow. Things, life and the likes. And it's a form of terrorism of the spirit. Now this made me think, shall I blame mother nature, global warming or really a true act of terrorism? After all, 12 fires burning simultaneously is kinda fishy. Hmn. Could it happen without human help? That is another question to ponder and who knows if we will ever get the rightful answer to this nagging puzzle. Probably not. So sad, really...

A Beautiful Beach

PATAR BEACH, that enchanting, unspoiled beauty in Patar, Bolinao, Pangasinan, our always beach destination everytime we are in the Phil. Unexpensive, you just have to pay a rent for that open bamboo papags where Paul was sitting here, our very reliable driver every time :) I love Patar beach. Pristine, unspoiled, laid back. No developments yet, as of now, except for the roads leading to it, it's mostly paved already this year I noticed, it wasn't then. It was dusty, muddy, and bumpy as I recalled the first time we were ever there. But it's worth the drive, the hassle. That I can assure you :)

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And we went to check Puerto del Sol bec. it was not that far. Yeah, the amenities were great and somewhat comparable to those offered by state side resorts, but, I wasn't happy with these coconut trees obstructing my view of the ocean, not good if you ask me. I came to see the sea, but it seems like it was intentionally hidden from me, laughs. Sooo I did not like it. But if you're a lover of privacy then it is for you :> It was okay, don't get me wrong. Nice but I was irked by the absence of the ocean in my view as seen in those beautiful cottages. I am for Patar beach, it's more beautiful there and I mean more here :> The view of the sea is endless here as far as your eyes can see. Endless serenity, endless peace as your gaze is fixed on its hypnotic waves as they splashed on the white sand shore. I will be here forever if I can chose a place to be in. It makes you reflect about life, about things that are bothering you. It makes my heart rest in peace :) And besides, it's for the poor like me and it's for the public. I love that. Mingling with people that I belonged to, no kidding :) For you know, Puerto del Sol is only for the haves... not that I can't afford to be there, but why be in a place where you won't be happy? Now that is the question...

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Pics taken, July '07, during our vacation :)

Now I Know

http://www.9news.com/news/article.aspx?storyid=79484

"I Will Always Love You" this song was written and dedicated to this man by Dolly Parton, per this DJ, as I was listening to my car radio on my way home today. Very sweet, indeed. A very memorable love song, I think so... even that DJ from 100.3 WNIC said so...although sad, but yes, lovely and very nice to listen to :)

See? I'm right... music is the language of the inner soul and of the unseen spirit. It mesmerizes and it captivates. This man I bet is deserving of such a wonderful melody. Hmn, also a good tune for your lady love, wife, or sweetie or cutie pie :> but...the wordings or lyrics revised, of course. (^_~)...

Autumn is awesome...taken yesterday :)

After work, after mass and J.C.'s Bell Choir Sunday session at church, the weather was warm and sunny, not that chilly fall weather that we usually get. So out we went to get some pretty fall shots. Leaves are a changin' at this time of year. Autumn's spell is in progress :) Beautiful! :>

Wow, I wonder how many ladies want my expression of glee, joy or happiness like this (:>) on this blog, laughs. I bet there will be one :? out there somewhere. Although, I never called myself a lady of luxury anywhere for I'm a poor working woman, laughs. Oh well. And tsk! My tongue can't be controlled at other times for I can't even say or give the English language its rightful sound, laughs. Like 'folks' for example, that is a very bad slip up, laughs. But hey, I never claimed myself to be perfect. So now you know that I allow myself the 'luxury?' of bad sounds. For who cares anyhow? Nada, err no one, not even me :>

Miracle Indeed

Once in awhile TV stations report uplifting stories which is very rare as I observed and far in between. Yesterday they did just that. There was this autistic boy (same age as Michael, my autistic son) who was hiking with his parents. He was lost for four days in the wilderness. Fending for himself alone and with a mind of a three years old it is really by divine providence that he was found safe and alive with no injuries. That was a story that for me is worth my time. People cared. Massive search was orchestrated just to find this hapless boy and they did. Their efforts paid off. I'm not really saying that I don't care about news that depict carnage, death and suffering, but it's too much for me. My world at work is just that, so time out for me is required for my sanity's sake :) And if Michael was the one in that boy's shoes I don't think my son would ever live like he did. I'm happy for his family. God intervened and helped. Anything is possible with Him. I truly believe in that, just have faith. Miracle happens. It had in my life. I met a lady with a golden heart sent by God years ago, to help me then and even now. I'm very lucky. So I'm a living proof of a miracle happening in this world... :)

Okay, time to lighten up :)

It's Rock and Pop time in this blog :> next songs will be similar to little bombs. To my ears at least, to make that clear, laughs. No, I think I'll alternate them... slow, rock then back :> better that way :) So definitely, music rules the times, here in this blog at least...(^_~)...the first, an old pop, lively and fun...it reminds me of Bob Barker and Happy Gilmore, when Adam Sandler made a hole in one... :)

The Scent of a Rose

Red, ravishing, a beauty for all eternity
Sweet, pure and peaceful enveloped your vicinity
Sacrifice, selfless, giving and loving described your day
Even in the twilight, at the sunset, you've given without pay

A hugging heart, a warm and a caring blood
A tireless body always is, you've got
A rose of love, a caring soul full of sacrifice
The sky, the heaven will smile up above

Rosa Rosal, you're a hero in disguise
Rosa Rosal, an exemplary soul, so nice
I don't know you but I admire you a lot
For you've live a life of worthy and trust...

Jaded Journey

The road was bumpy
spiked with thorns
so sharp it hurts
it caused a tired
two feet to bruise

they bleed and drained
like water's pouring rain
until the drought stopped
with hopes of plants
to sprout again

the tears slowly dripped
upon that stoic face
the salty taste of pain
that numbed an empty
heart so pale

the smile you
turned your back at
the sun that
pulled your heart
the wishes, wants, desires
the gifts you longed to have

the present of today
forever lost and gone
not ever coming back
to smile and warm
your heart

it's been a long jaded journey
unhappy, not joyful, but sad...

A Mesmerizing Melody

Ah, music the language of the silent soul, and of the silent spirit. It captures, it captivates. It mesmerizes, it enchants and spins you into that dreamland of happiness. For three minutes of your life on earth...not bad, for you may have nothing, for you might be just one of those deaf, of those deprived, living in silence, not hearing the sounds of the Gods... of these magical melodies and lullabies, that is. Now, that is just so sad... and he is Gino Federici in "It's Now or Never" or "O Sole Mio" now playing on the air :) What a song. Very nice...so we can say that music is after all, still alive :) but it has been that on this blog in the first place since the very beginning, it was and it will always be filled with music, for music is my name, a name of an opera by Verdi and I can sing a little bit, plus play the piano a little bit as well :) Now if I can only just play the guitar, I'll be complete, laughs. No kidding. Just for 99 cents a song, my blog enchants and captivates, I hope, but definitely it does for me, laughs. Cheap, for all that heart wrenching melodies, I think. And "Somewhere in Time" that movie, that song. I bought one CD of it on my first ever vacation to the Phil. and the next thing I knew is, that song is being played on my sister's wedding. I lost that CD and guess what? my sister did not even mention that I left it on my vacation in my brother's condo, laughs. Been looking and looking then for I love the song. Oh well...

And yeah, it's now or never. Do whatever makes you happy and makes you smile and makes you a person of substance. For today is only what we have that is guaranteed. No need to explain more just turn your TV on. The end comes unexpectedly at times, sad...

For balance

To counteract my sad poems here... presenting the happy rainbow rose, one more time. Always remember... the sun is forever shining behind those dark, black clouds...so hope isn't lost, and love can always be found, if your mind and heart are open and if your lips will always give a smile... :)

World War III?

Now that is a chilling warning from Pres. Bush today in that conference that he had this morning. I missed it for I needed to go to bed after work. Politicians here esp. the Democrats are not happy. A war in progress in Iraq and now he has this one in mind, an even larger scale of a possible Armageddon in the future. Pres. Putin's visit in Iran. What does this means? Who will dominate the middle east? Islam or Christianity and that black gold, oil. Really a very scary subject to ponder about. A global war today would be very catastrophic to the human race, no telling about it, so it would be wise that a time out is needed in discussing such negative word and mentioning it live, and in public for all the world to hear is just not right. I think so. People listen and people will digest it. Not very good. Although that thought of it was really out there before this. Which makes me think that there is the possibility of it happening in my life time and that is frightening, making the hairs all over my body stand...