Wednesday, February 3, 2010
tea, salad and a noodle bowl...
now i understand...

thanks little Blake for your fabulous art, wrong spelling and all :) i luv it!
Monday, February 1, 2010
paradise to the max :)
the water and the wind, the clear blue skies and me. the journey that never ends. in search of paradise and finally it's here :> i love the beach :)
thinking of you through the years :)

but the long years had passed and time is moving in. this old and trembling body could no longer think and bake a cake. the wrinkled hands and turned white hair are just stark reminders. to stringing roses, pearls and words that now it's hard to make over.
the sun had risen so much in you that the light is now fading. the moon had weaned and left a lot that now you can't even tell if it's a crescent. the smile of the moon had long been gone in your memory that the dove could no longer sing. the mind is covered with buzzing bees that the ears are ready to be inundated. with meaningless jitters and silent words that you no longer cared. the time had passed but the love and memories are still fresh. not time nor wintry weather could ever have that ever erased...
it is valentines day soon. let's create love, give love and have love...(^_~)...let not a day pass without saying...i love you... to the people that we love. that it is not only when they say goodbye to you that you use your guitar to play sweet melodies for them. it might be late by then, it might not matter to them by then...
now i know why the Internet is so alluring. i can make my mind walk in a timeless journey and travel without leaving my house. i can paint the world with words to my liking. i can do the word tango and spin and spin until i could no longer care. i can do that willingly in the Internet and i don't even have to spend a cent. i don't earn money with it but my satisfaction is to the tills, laughs. now one reason that the cyber space world is one hard universe to leave but i will eventually, soon or not very soon...trust me on that :)
love lost is love gained...




if you hurt the skin blood will bleed. if you play with love tears will reign. love and blood are a life signaling drums. both will dry and die if force is applied. both will be vanished and both will be gone. be gentle with love and be careful with blood. once both flows, there's a glow inside. once they're played life for sure will stop...once they're done, the earth is gone.
a sprout of hope in a flickering candle. it was the light of love that thy hands had touched. the reddish burnt at that tip. it's the heart that warmed the dark corners of the earth. a boiling blood is anger's wrath, the red that runs at the candles' heart. once a candle is finished the light is done. you need another one to warm the night...then the blood will flow again and life had just begun...
love comes, love leaves
love hurts, love embraces
love falls, love dies
but love comes back
and forever lives...
love is the sunrise as love is the sunset. love is a cycle that never ends...
and you don't want to know what i really thought about love...for it is but a game. don't take it so seriously for your sanity's sakes :) love is just an emotion that you can control. if you swim in its deep waters you are doomed to drown, so stay out of the pool :> er stay out of love if you are wise :) but again too many of us are fools, sad to say...we need to escape the love month, i say. so...let's jump now to march...really. even if they say that love makes the world go round, your choice...avoid love at all cost. it is an angelic demon, most of the time but if you're lucky that you would encounter love's rays i bet it is always heaven and smiles at your place :)
Sunday, January 31, 2010
planes ready to land amidst the winter sky


one by one the planes hover over my head as i gaze outside the window pane. they fly so low ready for a touch down thinking of their destinations anew. inside are tourists, maybe, all passengers that's ready for a home. after a long journey warm beds are waiting for them in tow.
what a sight to behold, amidst the dark and forbidding sky. what a thought to be had when life is tired. what an inspiration that fills all empty hearts. think about the planes above the sky coming down full of love hope and pride...
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as i am typing this i counted 7 planes that were in line ready for a landing. they are still high above but you can see their lights flickering some with red on the right side as i peek out my window. our house is a good 1 hour drive to the airport and our house i guess is their path for a touch down and i don't mind for they are just an amazing sight to see in any given evening :) there are around 5,000 planes in the U.S. air space every single day as you can see in the web site about planes on air...planes ready to land is a free wonderful experience for me that repeats itself every night. one of the best :> planes are carrier of dreams. i rode one from the philippines then. my first ever flight and it landed here in the greatest country in the world...mine now :) but actually i ride a plane to go to the first ever wonderful country in the world too and there are 2 of them in my life and in my book :) lucky me for God is good :>
Thursday, January 28, 2010
the first state of the union address...
...today...of our president Barack Obama :) he mentioned about the "killing" of the health care reform bill now that the democrats, his own party do not have the super majority in the senate. like an "offering" of the newly elected senator who replaced the seat of the late senator Ted Kennedy. he said, this new republican senator, that he will cast the vote that would "kill" the passing of the health care reform bill that their democratic opponents in congress had worked so hard on this past months, maybe an offering to his "beloved" republican voters who put him into office...but our president said that he won't give up to find a way to give us a decent health care bill...bravo! really in my case we have health insurance through my employer so it is not really for me primarily but there are provisions that will strengthen it...so i salute him for trying to fight for those who don't have health care coverage in spite of the tidal waves of opposition from the republicans who are against it and you don't have to be a genius to figure why...for they are for the big rich corporations, the health and drug industries here who spend millions to lobby elected government officials to oppose the president initiatives for a decent health care bill for the working middle class American public for it will be their loss...well, really...you don't have to be very vocal or graphic Mr. Republicans, i say...for you have long been "killed" in my heart and in my book :) for i am a working class democrat needless to say here, laughs. and yes, the killing and the offering as a gift of something...this reminds me that i need to open a painting that i bought? or tried to buy which has a smile on it...honestly, i haven't open that painting yet, for i thought that the pic of that art sent to me by the gallery is enough, laughs. now, you can say that the painting was killed already before i can even see it in actuality? laughs. try to figure that out...but I'm sad that my dad might not be very happy about this. although, killing for a cause can be justifiable only in metaphor okay? this if you're trying to prove your affection, then by all means let's kill it :) let that painting be not in the open for my eyes to see :> maybe that is the reason why it was never opened in the first place because it was destined to be killed? laughs. how sad then but on the contrary it might be probably better that way for no one would like to see a painting that will be dead anyway, laughs. oh well. just a joke...(^_~)... smile :) and yes, of course sorry for the joke...even that painting hasn't been seen by my eyes, i thank you dear artist for it ...just the same :) ...although killing a smile is a no no for me, really...no laughter, no joy. maybe i'll go in the basement now and put that art in the living room? laughs, hmn, maybe...yes, maybe :) it is mine now after all so i can do whatever i please with it :) if it's time to put it out, i promise i will, how about that? laughs. oh well. again, in all of these, as long as someone is made happy...i am happy as well, the bottom line :) and you don't want me to spell out my true take in all of these, laughs. the truth is really there is nothing to be unhappy about, so there's no need or no reason to kill a smile :)
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
joy is an ocean cruise :)

the ocean made me smile...
as i look at the distant shore, i said goodbye for awhile
while the dimming harbor lights flicker and ready to die
the waves are waving gently as the ship quietly glides
i'm ready to depart and to feel the blue nostalgic skies
as i walk at the decorated deck my anticipation swelled
what will the distant lands and exotic places held
will they tame my playful spirit and capture it to rest
will they offer lasting glories and memories' best
will it conquer my soul and make it whole once more
will it tell me true stories and never lie to me at all
will it hug me and comfort me when my tears are ready to roll
will it, that's the big undying question written in my notes
the sea is vast and the ocean is wide
the journey is now, let the sun emit its shine
let the warm breeze bite my cold stuffy nose
let the cruise go ride, rip and roar
let it refresh and renew my tired body and soul :)



the aida diva must be saying, come sail away with me... but aida the opera must also be implying let's go er be together till our last breath on earth, bec. you are my true love... i wonder if verdi gave them the last rites in ending his world wide acclaimed opera :) if not he should have. sadly i haven't been in to see aida, the opera...so i won't know...maybe in the future :)
aida what it meant. very interesting, to me at least :> let's sail on!
welcome next...
the curtain fell
for the play
has to end
the drama
is real but it's
time to heal
gather your
strength for the
next phase is here
life is a book, it has
too many pages
to read...
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
soothing water, dance and healing...plus a poem :)
"JOY"...on air, music by giovanni :)
just us all alone in a beach
just you in my mind no one else
just them holding hands so tight
in this ever changing carousel of life
you, who is always there by my side
you, who never left, never vanished
never died
you, who will forever live
in my heart :)
yeah, yeah, yeah. think of love, always...(^_~)...even in the midst of divorces, break-ups and love gone lost...like memories, that something to hold onto once our muses, spouses or lovey doveys leave, die, or are gone, laughs. but really it is just a poem to make me smile and laugh. to get a break from the most serious business and that is the business of living my life in a happy and productive way...true happiness for me is happiness given to others because that is happiness served to God :> and yes, JOY is me according to wikipedia and of course joy is also h. saya :)
Monday, January 25, 2010
the raindrop's rinse...

i need a bath that cleanse the soul
i need a drop more and full
i need a spring that soaks and clean
i need the rain that drains the pain
of living and of everything :)
this sunday evening is just a drawer of sad TV programming. just watched the times and the moment when the asia tsunami hit in vivid and horrid film forever captured in one's memory. what was then a fishing village of 1,000 residents, only 10 survived. a train loaded with passengers capsized and turned over like a light weight match stick helpless and so its passengers most of whom drowned and died. the raging water is so powerful that no one dares to be on its way...or else.
a few seconds of earth's movement and shaking, then rubble from collapsing buildings around mercilessly pinning and burying frightened victims, taking and ending their lives just like that...the pain of living is the pain when all of these lives ended suddenly without warning. no time for thinking of myself today when a lot are suffering in this hemisphere where i'm at. no time to think of vanity or similar to that...no time.
with just the touch of your cell phone's keypad, you can make a difference and help. express your sorrow and compassion by donating to the Red Cross by texting...Haiti 90999... or Haiti 20222, to Bill Clinton's Haiti fund...your donation of only 10 dollars will be charge to your monthly cell phone bill. let's do it and then we can think of ourselves after... thinking other's need first is the priority... esp. in times like this :) your beauty coming from the inside will enhance your beauty of the outside, guaranteed!
i did it and so can you :>
now i am trying to do some math here...a total of 300 million people lives here in the U.S. and that includes me, laughs. if only a third of that will donate 10 USD each by texting, that will add up into a tremendous amount of moolah that could go into a very, very long way in helping the haitians recover form this tragedy...whom most are living in the tune of 1-2 USD a day...now the more reason to do it...be a part of the solution and little sums add up :)
the tiny Phil. has 93 million population to date and that is 1/3 of the huge USA. no wonder in manila, people are packed like sardines then and more so now. it is really hard to think of progress. in terms of space alone the comparison is mind boggling and in terms of technological advancement it is really just no comparison. now i am very sad...but...if there is a redemption, the beaches are beautiful :) okay, define me as shallow, laughs, for i haven't seen our president barack obama's hawaii's beaches. i heard they are gorgeous as well :) beauty after all is in the eyes of the beholder aka what is beauty to one might not be to another...but could beauty be based on the hair? or in the brains? now a challenging question...and it will define you on how you choose, laughs. oh well...but whatever moves our boat :) or whatever makes us happy let's go for it for really no one cares except us, laughs, and i got that one right, that's for sure :)
wow, kidding aside here, politics is hard to play... i bet our president is thinking now. and with the recent approval by the U.S. supreme court on the limitless amount of contribution any big business can give to their candidate of choice in any given seat...there is a big fat chance that it will affect the outcome of an election for money talks and walks, ask the devil and the lobbyist who will be working hard to buy the votes of elected officials here, for them to look their way or to favor, aka vote for their causes...sad, that we, the poor american public, our welfare will be put in jeopardy starting with the upcoming midterm election here in November. hope that goodness and the right consciences of our politicians will prevail and win, i hope and we better start praying to God now...God, the champion of the truth, love and compassion and everything wonderful and nice :) no one could ever dare to dispute that even though we could not see Him around us. He helps, He knows, He loves... so if we are smart, we go for the winner, right? awesome :)
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
love makes you do things, laughs
very sad that a republican guy won the seat of the late Ted Kennedy today. a big blow to the Obama white house for the 60 senators that is the filibuster proof number in having their agenda being pushed through without opposition went puff. now it is 59. this guy is a no vote to the health care reform law that they're trying to pass. a law that will give some kind of a little acceptable form of health care coverage to the middle class and would bring health coverage to more Americans which is always being profited and taking advantaged of by the health and pharma industries here. it is harder to pass that law now although all is not lost yet bec. they have some options still to consider like not going back to the senate for a re vote...the house of congress will just vote on it as it is, one option, so you won't get that guy's no vote...they thought that they have that seat in the bag but lo and behold they were wrong and they lost that very important seat...complacency and counting your eggs even though they weren't hatched yet...blue eyes crying in the rain here including me...ironic that Ted Kennedy's wish before he died was the approval of the health care for most Americans and here is his replacement, a republican who is against it...made me think that what he wanted most before and even in his death bed that was then seemed easy to get...now it is hanging by a thread...the fight for this health care bill is going to be harder and harder with the loss of the democrats' super majority in the senate. makes me wonder if it would still be a worthwhile bill at the end if it will pass at all and only time will tell...
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
wherever you are...
Monday, January 18, 2010
operation: touch someone...
i love this beautiful tune, the so called earthquake song ...just saw today at CNN Dr. Sanjay Gupta, a CNN journalist and its chief medical correspondent plus a neuro-surgeon from our state here. he is performing brain surgery to a 12 year old girl, a quake victim in Haiti...the video is not available yet at you tube and so his interview today with former president Bill Clinton in Haiti. this brought memories for me bec. i was once an OR nurse in the Philippines assisting MDs in different surgical procedures covered in mask, gown, gloves and all :) serious business but fun times :> i love Sanjay Gupta :) he turned down the offer by the Obama administration to be the U.S. Surgeon General and now here is one reason that he made the right decision...the service to humanity in tough times like this. the ultimate bringer of great accomplishment, self worth and joy...lucky man :)
a break in the clouds



the feet are cracking now
the road was filled with filth
black stones and sharp rocks
it was a winding freeway
which lead to dis-array
the trip was worth it though
nirvana is earth's heaven's half
the clock finally ticked
its sweet calling ring
the sun, the moon are on their way
to brighten earth's lost lair
hello to sunny, singing skies
goodbye to dreamless life
tomorrow will be different
the angels' trumpet's high
the song bird sings with love
the bees will buzz and dance
the butterflies will flip and flap
over perfumed flowers' heart
God's light is always a gift
God's love is always constant
no way is closed, it's forever open
have faith that hope and smile will reign and shine :)
images are from the www, thanks lots you owners for sharing :>
Sunday, January 17, 2010
the passing of judgement...
and yes i know it's sooo easy to notice flaws on your fellowmen but in hindsight how about YOU? you will get wrinkles, look old and with sagging everything too, it is just a matter of time, laughs. oh well. maybe it's botox time and surgery time for kris then? and for all vain people as well, but that won't be beauty natural...not unless you want fakes, laughs. oh well, again! talking about this is just plain stupidity if you ask me for whatever your fellow men does is not your business and whatever they look too. you're just being nosy, so kindly stop for it is just defining you as a person here instead you defining others in not sooo flattering ways...ergo are you venus personified now? and if it is so, will you stay that way forever? i doubt it... for nature says that we will all grow old :)
but if you insist on fake beauty, here are prescriptions...for sagging elbows=exercise, weight lifting, i am doing it :) for sagging everything else, the surgical knife...but for that sagging and nosy conscience, none can cure that except, you yourself :) as our pres. barack obama here wanted then... change is the key and it begins with us :> with sagging this or that and all, laughs. oh well, again, as usual...
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Friday, January 15, 2010
what will you do? a semi-funny story :)
Thursday, January 14, 2010
a warm dog's SMILE :)
more than 100,000 people are feared dead in the aftermath of the catastrophic earthquake in Haiti. the archbishop is also dead, 85% of the population is catholic. the palace, the house of their president also was not spared. the city that is supposed to accommodate 50,000...there are 2 million people packed in there...then the major problem of buildings built poorly which won't have a chance to stand a major earthquake...i am thinking of the Philippines. i hope that the buildings, houses, high rises are more better built just in case a similar case, (hope to God not) will happen...truly heart breaking, heart wrenching, an apocalyptic nightmare, totally terrible and a hell hole of ungodly proportion...we ask God in times like this, what could be wrong, what was the message, who is to blame...human's soddy constructions of buildings for one...i wish that there will be an invention in the future that could warn humans even for just 30 minutes in advance that this tragedy will occur soon so they could evacuate and flee to safety, i wish...
a dog can sense the coming of an earthquake seemingly but only for a few seconds before it happens...we need more animals that can do that for us in more than 30 minutes to evacuate. this proves that animals have more developed sensitivity to their surroundings than humans...
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
7.0 magnitude earthquake hits Haiti
Monday, January 11, 2010
9 churches...
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shots of the 9 churches in manila that we visited on that day during pacquio's fight...there was no traffic so we did it in just a few hours :)
take one and take two...
Be Not Afraid...Bob Dufford, S.J.
You shall cross the barren desert
But you shall not die of thirst
You shall wander far in safety
Though you do not know the way.
You shall speak your words in foreign lands
And all will understand
You shall see the face of God and live.
Be not afraid
I go before you always
Come follow Me
And I shall give you rest.
If you pass through raging waters
In the sea, you shall not drown
If you walk amidst the burning flames
You shall not be harmed.
If you stand before the power of hell
And death is at your side
Know that I am with you, through it all.
Be not afraid
I go before you always
Come follow Me
And I shall give you rest.
Blessed are your poor
For the Kingdom shall be theirs
Blessed are you that weep and mourn
for one day you shall laugh.
And if wicked men insult and hate you
All because of Me
Blessed, blessed are you!
Be not afraid
I go before you always
Come follow Me
and I shall give you rest...
...played in the piano by Jon Sarta...