so many flowers...

but so short of a summer, thus too little time to enjoy them... i think i needed a procedure to take out excess baggage here, laughs, terrible!

ART and AUTISM

Erin Crowe in the CNBC studios with her final portrait of former Federal Reserve Chairman Alan Greenspan. An eBay auction of a portrait of Alan Greenspan by artist Erin Crowe, with proceeds to benefit Autism Speaks, ended Friday, Feb. 3, 2006, with a winning bid of $150,400. Crowe painted her final portrait of the outgoing Federal Reserve Board Chairman live on cable TV network CNBC, beginning with a blank canvas on CNBC's "Squawk Box" and completing the painting during CNBC's "Closing Bell." Visit the eBay auction site.For the last several years, Crowe, a 24-year-old University of Virginia graduate, has been painting portraits of Alan Greenspan. Last year, Crowe displayed her oil-on-canvas portraits of Greenspan at a family friend's gallery in Sag Harbor, Long Island, in hopes of earning some extra money. Several paintings were sold but a frenzy started last August after her works were featured on CNBC. Since then, money managers and others in the financial industry have been calling Crowe from all over the country, looking for the Greenspan portraits. Click here for about more about CNBC. Click here to read more about Erin Crowe's paintings of Alan Greenspan.

Michael, my special son :)

Autism, seizures, unable to speak except for a few words, this boy has them all...but at least he's not wheelchair bound. So he can walk like a normal kid in places where we visit like the Phil. The BEST that I've ever posted in this blog. and he knows that I'm his mom for he calls me "mama" one of the few words that he can say. Now you can only imagine how does that made me feel :)
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Michael is both love and sacrifice :)

memories lost

i dreamt of pink flowers in my garden
but i woke up to a barren field
i thought i saw you in my dream
but i woke up to a blank space

i had you imagined as perfect
but you're full of flaws and kinks
i had you dressed and framed
but the sight was too surreal

i thought you can count the petals
instead you were lost and drained
too young to suffer endlessly
too young to be deprived of wins
too young to be incomplete, a taker
but i love you just the same...
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thanks to you dear artist for your award winning art :)

plastic surgery now? i guess :>

after when most of the tulips are gone......comes my pretty purple lucille balls :) not bad for a follow up bloom isn't it? hmn truly, i really need a big facial renovation so bad. i want a face lift asap! laughs. tsk, i better put that sunglasses on all the time, to hide my ugly face :> oh well. hmn, how about botox? well it is not really that costly here, very affordable or chemical peels here and there but these botox' toxins though are very scary. it might travel elsewhere in your body causing trouble, so is it worth the risk? that is the question, laughs. beauty really can be manipulated. so far i haven't done any of that yet. but with the looks of it, i might need it soon, laughs. see how vain females are? but really the beauty inside you is what matters at the end of the day, don't you think? for what will you do with a lovely face but with an unlovely heart? i know, for beauty parades, laughs. but hey, truly let's just let cupid do his job, i say. :) ...and my white tulips are late bloomers, pure and pretty, i think so :)

at the mall

but the 3G is out of stock so we'll just have to wait :) i browsed on their apple computers and the pics are much more crispier and clearer when i look at my blog than in my dell computer, hmn...

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as i see some growing plants in our backyard i wonder if something happens in your own house or in your own backyard or in a write-up about you and you are the editor...YOU are the ULTIMATE place where the buck stops or who will shoulder the blame. this is if you happen to reach the thinking of the OLD and the wise...(^_~)...but if not it's understandable for you needed to grow up more in age and maturity, i mean, no offense here :) as in alikes roll together for a better sentence, but as you know you can't get good English here in this blog so there... I'm sure you "can't tolerate" that too as you've written before so just click out will you? laughs, the solution :)

the Economics of today... here in the U.S.

well, it is the money tsunami of the century, America is going broke? sad to say it seems like it is...the result of greed of the rich, shipping their manufacturing businesses and American jobs out to China, India and so on and on, for the reason of cheap labor leaving almost 10 million Americans here out of their jobs thereby they can't afford to pay mortgages on their homes, making them default and banks holding these unpaid homes so the result of the banking crises, sort of...pres. Obama is trying to fix this mess by stimulating the economy, trying to create jobs to cover or replace those that are lost which is a LOT. hope his administration will hit it bull's eye...how about shipping all the manufacturing businesses BACK to the U.S. from CHINA? i know almost all things here are MADE in China and other countries that you will have to shop all day just to find stuffs made here in the U.S. yes, my friend, that is the ultimate solution...no more shipping of AMERICAN businesses overseas, keep them back here :) so that the respect and the love will come back from all people all over the world...yes, now the U.S. is in debt from these emerging economies but who is to blame? ourselves here in the U.S. for we sent these businesses there. STOP the bleeding and think American first i say. now we are learning our lessons the hard way where our people are getting poorer while those countries that we sent our businesses are getting richer and WHO is to BLAME? US if you know how to think right...i read that we already had won over China in the economic front, without waging a war, that is the plan in the first place...befriend your enemies...and that is done but look at the consequences, the downturn of the U.S. economy, the suffering of your own citizens, it is not acceptable i say...America is wise, winning wars, hot or cold wars :) and still the number one super power in this world...America had made a mistake and it's about time to correct that mistake or else the one that you conquered in the economic front will turn over the tables to you and it starts with the lose of the love and the respect...first...i have hope that America will recover and DO it in a big way and it will happen, just watch...if not on pres. Obama's watch, it will on some other's for America never disappoints, that is why the U.S. is still on top, in the first place in spite of its economic woes and really there is a fight here...of the middle class and the rich and the haves had won, with their businesses out of the country, the middle class, the working class here in the U.S. had shrunk and a new poor had emerged, just sad...but with dire consequences, the economic melt down of the century affecting people all over the world for they had investments here in the U.S. as well. it will take a few years for the U.S. to bounce back and the plans are already hatched and in place...my second country will come back to its economic glory and i firmly believe in that. let's be patient and learn how to tighten our belts first in the process. i am poor and i don't want to get poorer and that is just a classic human wish which all of us poor people has :) i hope that the chinese people will love the U.S. more for it paved the way for them to be an economic star, emerging that is...but for some that don't... i do understand, although i wish it is the opposite. keep the love i say for the U.S... the reason of your economic boom... just a gentle reminder... to those that forgot :) coin art is by Eric Trich...

bahagharing nakangiti :)

akala ko ay hindi ka
guniguni pero
tama pala ang sabi nila
akala ko ay nandito ka
pero taga ibang ibayo
ka pala nang mundo
na napakalayo sa tingin ko

naglipas na ang tag-init
at tag-ulan pero kahit
anino mo man lamang
ay hindi ko matanaw
natawid ko na ang
mataas at malayong
bundok pero ikaw
ay nasaan

ngayon alam ko na
ang dahilan
ikaw ay isang
panaginip lamang
na sa paggising ko ay
permanenting naiwan
na sa alapaap hanggang
doon ka na lamang

salamat sa mga pagkukunwari
na kahit saglit ay nabighani
maraming pusong natuliro
dahil sa iyo ay lumuluha
at may siphayo, laughs

paalam na lang sa iyo
dahil hindi ka pala tutuo
isa ka lamang palang
bahaghari na ang
kulay ay nawawala
at hindi pang habang buhay
kundi panandalian
ka lamang na ligaya, laughs.

okay, it's been a very long time that i did speak in my own native tongue, blame it on my second country now, laughs...i tried to come up with a string of words. although it is very odd, i think i was able to express the idea that was in my mind at the moment, laughs. basically the point is to thank the rainbow for its beauty but sadly it is just a temporary phenomena...

pag-ibig na tunay :?

sa umaga isa kang larawan nang ligaya, nakangiti at nakakabighani
sa tanghali isa kang araw na napakasaya, mainit sa palad ko sa tuwina
sa gabi ay isa kang ibon na ang awit ay hindi lumilipas, kumukupas, o napapagod sa panghaharana :)

kong ako'y nalulungkot, ika'y isang komedyante, mahal na irog, laughs
kong ako'y lumuluha nandiyan ka at may panyo sa akin na laging inaabot
kong ako'y nasisiphayo, sa tabi ko'y hindi ka umaalis, ang mata mo sa akin ay laging nakapako, laughs

hinding, hindi kita makakalimutan, ikaw ay ligaya sa tag-init man o sa tag-ulan, laughs
hindi ako mabubuhay kong wala ka sa piling ko ako na rin ay mamamatay
lumipas man ang maraming bagyo sa buhay natin ay palaging tayo
dahil and pag-ibig natin ay tutuo, panghabang buhay, at hindi pagbabalatkayo :)

marami mang pagsubok na darating sa buhay natin at maraming manghihimasok
marami mang problema tayong dalawa ang haharap na magkatugma at magkabalikat
marami mang tukso diyan pero ikaw pa rin at ako ang magwawagi sa katapusan
dahil ang puso mo'y busilak, walang bahid nang sama, makadiyos at tutuong makakapwa

ang ngiti mo ay tutuo, makapuso at walang siphayo
ang boses mo ay isang anghel na dumuduyan sa akin sa magdamag kahit takipsilim
ang pag-ibig mo ay busilak walang pagkukunwari at hindi lang kukutikutitap
ang buhay ko'y laging masaya kong ika'y nandito sa tabi ko...sana'y ito ay wala nang wakas at panghabangbuhay :)

tsk! kahit papaano alam ko rin palang tumula? sa tagalog, laughs. but this is just idealism concerning love :) now if everything is like this in loveland, there will be no tears and no break ups, no misunderstandings nor divorces...i know, shall i say dream on, then? or does it exists? you tell me, laughs. oh well. let's hope so :>

the bell is quiet now

the bell is silent for awhile now
the love that runs through it is gone
the song that seeps in its pink lips
is mute and cares no more

the dew that drops at dawn is cold now
the water is poisonous, not good to drink
maybe tomorrow as this day will pass
the rain will wash away the dirt

who could tell that a new day will come again
who could say that the iris will bloom next year
who can say that it will be the same
not you, not me, nor they, nor others

the color of the bell is you
the drop of the rain is sadness
the shape of the bell means forever
as it toils each day, as it rings in our ears
as long as we live on this earth...

RX for change...

...is in the works...president Obama is really working hard to provide all Americans with affordable health care coverage. with around 47-48 millions U.S. citizens left uninsured at the current time, guess who is resisting this change...the republicans who are mostly rich and the party of the rich who owns these health insurance companies whose businesses will have competition if the president's plan will prosper, take effect or win...now who really has that true care for the American people? and not only there looking out for themselves...the answer my friend is very simple...it is NOT blowing in the wind ;)

after the rain

the clap of thunder that was so loud is gone
the sharp sparks of lightning had stopped
all the sycamores are in stand still after the rain
all the birds are coming from nowhere they begun to chirp

the rain kept pouring and falling it can't stop last night
today is a new day the sun is shining bright
the daffodils and the evergreens are smiling again
there is hope and happiness as you open your den

the scent of fresh air is blowing gently at you
as if it's saying its hello
the colors of the cosmoses give smile to your day
pink, purples, violets, yellows and creams
are on display

after the rain comes the sun
after the tears comes the smiles
after the lies come realities
the game is over the real play starts

there is no greater glory than to be true
there is no cost to freedom of the inner you
as the tide of life flows
as the earth moves slowly
at its orbit carrying you...

divine art...

is holy art...the birth, the visit, the crucifixion and Easter celebration...great works of art, i thought so...thanks dear artists :) the life of Jesus, a smiling Jesus, priceless :> and yes, if i could ask one favor from Him, again, laughs, it is really similar to what everyone wants...always peace, love, joy, good health and long life for my family and me and of course to all as well...(^_~)...plus Obama's health care victory, for it's long overdue...

under the sun drenched sand

those dark gloomy
days are over
the sun zipped
through the page
all numbers

and all the letters

their meanings

just revealed

your sad heart is
quite relieved
for no more
guessing at the
embers
where it will blow
where it will flow
for it's just
in front of you

the sun shines
to greet you
with warm rays
of its hands
it's ready
to hug you
with its brilliance
and lasting light

the sandy shore
is shrinking
soaked with centipedes'
stings so sharp
the sandy shore
is burning
with hot rocks
ruining your hands

as the gentle waves
of the ocean
gliding far away
from your sight
as your feet
pedal softly
saying gently
their goodbyes...

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very simple string of words. i love the beach, its sand, its sounds, its reflective ocean. it spells calmness of the spirit as it reveals one true beauty of our planet earth. it is the place where solid meets liquid, the place to smell the refreshing breathe of fresh air out from the earth. the place to bathe yourself and get rid of your aches and pains, laughs. the place to get together with your loved ones, relatives and friends. the place to reflect and reminisce. the place to sort out your life, the place to think and make decisions. the place to start change or status quo. the place where heaven resides on earth...the place where you'll find me when i'm lost...the second place :) happiness is the beach :>

gone with the wind...

it is only the thin air
the cold thin air
that brushes on
my warm cheeks
once in awhile now

it is only the filtering light
of the sun fading through
the thick dense forest filled
with swaying leaves
like an umbrella
sort of a canopy now

it is only the faint sounds
of the humming birds
that remind me
of your presence then

not a warm breeze
that gently blows by me
as i walk down the beach

not a rainbow
that colors my sky
after an endless rain at night

not a waterfall
that bathe and cleanse
my body with dirt
odor and unwanted oils

not a lively song
that i can dance
all day long

it is only the thin air
that dangles on my nose
every now and then

it is only just these faint
memories that i have now
because you are gone
dead and never
to return in my world again
you are now simply
a cold thin air
that i remember
every winter here

cold and deceased
dead, dark and done
and for that i am really sad
because you are gone
forever, till the end of time...

the Oscar trophy for the movie "gone with the wind" was bought by Michael for more than a million USD...gone with the wind...now it makes perfect sense...

and yes, gone with the wind too is my so called posting at randomly, laughs. oh well. blogging is also an addiction i know that by now, laughs. but everything has an end even happiness so even blogging. so let life er blogging takes its course, short or longer, who knows? :) but randomly it will be that for sure, not unless things come into play that need responding to for i can't just stay mum for that is a no no, to me at least :) speak er blog so people will know your take, your side and how your mind works. is it a bitch? laughs, or is it kind? is it dull or full of crap, laughs, or is it made of gems, jewels that you want to keep and treasure in your life till the end of time? like our muses er loved ones no matter what...(^_~)...and we alone know the answer...love after all conquers all so they say :> and love won't be gone with the wind no matter what :) even in death and i truly believe in that? it depends...for love is like a plant, without watering it, it will surely die, that my friend is true to the bones for that is why there are separations, divorces and changes of hearts. well said, i think so, laughs.

life is like a song...the best video ever in this blog :)

the love dance :) ...AT LAST by Beyonce...truly an incredible video, the song, the romantic dance. it introduced me to Beyonce. what a good singer, plus pretty! i like her and i also like the lovey dovey first couple, no match to that :) yup, the song is superb but the dancin' style of the president is a 9...did you see those moving legs? laughs...btw the score is from that guy who is a judge in the dancing with the stars and i don't think the score is to please the new president. he deserves it :> a little more practice...then it will be a 10! we can call it, the valentine dance :>

LIFT OFF! Shuttle Endeavour, today...

very exhilarating!!! really a thrill to watch the shuttle go a throttle up :> one most favorite TV viewing session of mine for I'm very intrigue with the outer space. at one point i want to be an astronaut, laughs. oh well. but true i find shuttle launches a must view. this recent one was postponed several times due to bad weather in Florida but finally it was a go today :) i remember watching the challenger disintegrate in the air during launch one fine day on the 80's in my apartment then and that was very very sad. that was the same time when the marcoses were overthrown, i remember that clearly...
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so what do you know, a person like me with a very humble beginning is watching all the glories here in the U.S., that is priceless, which any riches can't buy :) God is good if you try to be good for He is always watching us...making notes with our thoughts, actions and how we treat others :) it is not enough to say kind words to others for ACTION counts big time...we can utter the best honey coated string of words out there BUT where is the PROOF? now that is the burning question :> did we make the grade or at least did we start to try, hmn, only US knows the answer...and yes, when we're at it let's be kind to our maids :) no bitch words for they are doing the work for you which btw you can do pretty much by yourself :) i know they are being paid but let's help them once in awhile or in between their jobs, okidok? I'm pretty sure it's kinda hard for somebody who was born with lots of moolah but let's just say that reckoning might come in the future and it's your turn to be poor, who knows, unlikely you might say...but no one knows what the future will bring my dear, then you are well equipped psychologically and physically by then. now that is foresight and that is priceless :) again, be kind to those that are lower than you in economic status for no one stays on this earth forever. all of us will die someday like Michael Jackson, if not sooner it's later. if this won't ground your soaring perception of yourself, i don't know of anything else that will, tho' i tried :) and don't waste your precious time with trivial things, i may also add... and by that i meant you thinking much about your money which is the source or the inspiration or the start of evil things here on earth which is kinda sad...instead start the love by giving compassion to others and doing it now before it's too late :) remember words alone are empty not unless you add action into them then an outcome that will bring you joy, smile and fun. now who wouldn't want that :)

you are my sun...michael jackson

you are my sun that warms my heart
you are the light that vanishes the dark
you are the spark that starts all the love
as you are the fire that burns in me so bright

you are the moon with that smiley shine
you are the stars that twinkle at night
you are the magic that makes me laugh
as you are the smile that makes my life dance...

my version of it :) without a tune and minus the dance, sad isn't it? i don't have Michael's creativity so that explains it. the sun is michael's children as to us is our muses and love ones :> nice endearment for them on special occasions...(^_~)...

the eternal sun

it never sits it is always up
if we understand
and can imagine that
it slices the earth on its path
today it's here
tomorrow
it's on the other side

the earth that turns
around the sun
it's like a twin
its half is dark
the earth that spins
around the sun
the other half is
bright with light

the sun really "never" goes down
the sun really "never" goes dark
an eternal flame, a forever gem
that glows and burns
with that
bombastic beam
and that
unending glare :)

"we are the world" let's make it a better place...

Michael with his music made our world a better place...with his charitable acts, the United Negro College Fund for one which he donated millions and his charitable efforts to help famine victims in Africa...now it's our turn to contribute in our small and humble ways towards that goal..."this is it" his last concert phrase, the one he was preparing to do... but let us make it the beginning for a change...if not for our own immediate families' well being, it will be for the greater world...in deeds...and we can start now, the sooner the better :)

ranch paradise :)

not an illusion after all :)

my first blog music ever...i love it :> it does not seem that hard to play, laughs. maybe it's time to revisit my piano skills that is pathetic :) but our piano needs tuning first, laughs. oh well. i will, eventually... and J.C. is a good piano player, i know shameless promotion, but can you blame me? this boy won er was awarded the best student in piano twice, so his teacher said so not me to make that clear, laughs. but hey, he is okay, a lot better than me, laughs and that's for sure. but i really do justice to that 'O holy night' piece, and even J.C. said so :) well, i know Jesus won't mind and that's all it matters to me...(^_~)...well said, got you! laughs.

entertainer extra-ordinaire..

thanks for the joys that you brought us Michael, priceless...you will be sorely missed...btw ben is a rat. nice voice, you can tell even when he was very young then...my mader's favorite song of the king of pop :)

always give...

the sun is trying
to peek at the window
its heat is hot
as it gripped
your cold tired body
who is having chills
with a rolling blanket
wrapped around
woven with love
the rays of the sun
had finally won
it calmed your drowning
icy and blood deprived hands
and your fast palpating heart

the truth is like
a lotus starting to sprout
in a filthy pond
it's blossoming, opening up
ready to spread its wings
and capture the attention
of strangers passing by

we can't go on with just
silence that is all around us
we can't go on
with garbled notes
and chicken scratches
that we don't understand
we can't go on
for we are surely lost
and done

you said the pink moon
is ready to shine now
but the blue moon comes
around at some other times
i say the sun should
share its light forever
and not only just for now

the moon should stand all alone
the sun should continue to glow
as the stars will twinkle
as the planets will continue
to wind, grind and dance

giving is as old as age
giving is greater than to receive
giving is only good
when we don't deceive
giving is true only
when there's no hidden agendas
alternating in our heads

giving can be kinder
if you and all of us
just cared...

even kids knew...

when they're just being played upon...

everyone has a birthday

the dim witted, the bright and the lame
a plant, a worm, an animal or Adam and Eve in Eden
you shoot up, cried, crawled or popped out
life, birth, the beginning, the renaissance is here

every year as the days turn over
your anniversary comes as always
time takes its toil in your own home
as your body will slowly grow old

thanks for the added years and lessons
to you up there who's so kind and helpful
all things will boil and can go on
if you stamp your approval and say move on

one year is now almost over
how was it, was it a struggle
was it a cake or was it an ice cream
or was it a laurel pinned in your hair

nevertheless it is here once again
a birthday that is memorable in your brain
it is the day that you were given
the gift of life, precious life
so try to make things happen :)