more nursery blooms :)

Now you see, Now you don't...

this art's title...an illusion, a fantasy or a make believe similar to the next tune titled, "Illusion or Fantasy" it was my blog's first melody played btw. wonderfully interpreted by an unknown artist. just very humble of him or her not to take credit for such a very captivating piece superbly and intelligently interpreted. i think so :)
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and thanks to Mr. J. Torres, I love your painting :) I'm reminded of how the divorce judge of Heather Mills and Beatle Sir Paul McCartney described her, living in a make believe world sort of, like a business partner to Sir Paul that's why her claim of 200 mil which was settled to 48 mil recently after all is said and done. yup, love is just an illusion here. sorry Sir Paul. doubly sad for he lost love? but i don't think it ever existed then in the first place and moolah. yeah, lots of it, just for a mere few years of marriage. i dunno, is it worth it? he must be regretting a lot now a days for trusting her not to sign that pre-nup. oh well. people change and love can be a fantasy or an illusion, very right and very true. this is an example of it. so beware you all esp. if you have that big bucks or dough, laughs. really, if you're that rich would you let your love sign one prior to walking that aisle? that is a very tricky question and very emotional as well. Donald Trump did it and Marla Maples only got 1 mil USD after she was caught making it out with her body guard in a closet. that's what i read somewhere, laughs. wow, what a dilemma to be in. you love your gal or guy, but how do you bring that up to the table? i know you don't love me for my money but pls. sign this anyway? laughs. oh well. a very tricky thing for you might hurt the feelings of the love of your life, laughs. but hey, if i was in these positions, I'll sign it for him and I'll let him sign it too, for me. if he won't then he does not love me, very obvious diba? he loves my money, laughs. well. I'm glad that i am not in this kind of predicament...for it will be a headache bringer for sure, laughs. oh well. and yeah better be armed for who knows your beloved will find somebody else in the future who will steal his or her heart from you. in this case let him or her go with some moolah too but not like what sir Paul have to dole out for this girl. i think this is just money grabbing, not right. a few millions is fine but that much? she does not deserve it. sorry but that's my opinion. love is not love if you're seeing the greens :)...and yup if one wants freedom from you, let him/her go. for you want your love to be happy. i know it hurts but love is not there any more so what's the use? you don't want to live in a make believe world or do you? okay, you might have some perfectly valid reasons which I'm not privy of but prepare to suffer then, laughs. oh well. i dunno. life and love is ever so complicated in this world. and a few living former presidents could surely attest to that reality...

million petals, million leaves

i needed flowers to console me for the government backed 30 billion? USD Bear Stearns' bail out. the elite is saved again by their cohorts of same kind who's in power and his name is called Bush. while 2 million homeowners here who are losing their homes due to foreclosures are set aside, ignored and left out. what kind of government is this. i know it's government of the worst kind who can't accept that this country is not only in recession but in dire depression. well, comes November i hope voters will wake up and realize this and give their votes to Hillary, for it's "the economy stupid" the reason or that popular slogan when the elder or dad Bush lost his bid for second term to Bill Clinton :) one can claim that reason again for the win and it will be lady Clinton's win this time :) I'm crossing my fingers to it. wake up America, it's time. I'm beginning to think that there are none thinking people out there...the signs are flashing brightly in front of our very eyes but still we can't see...talk about having eyes that can't see here. it's like a bird with big wings but can't fly. useless, gosh! sorry, but it's true...

The insides of a plant nursery...

with orchids, cacti and tulips just to start...and pls. click for bigger images...this if you want :)

art is...

you...the inner you. what's in your mind, in your brain and in your heart at that exact moment that your hands pick up that paint brush... I've seen an Amorsolo hanging in one wall of their house in San Lorenzo, i meant my senorita's house here, and some other artist's works as well that i can't recall. i wonder what will be her impression on these paintings that i took from the web. thanks to you dear artists for your works :) you made my eyeballs popped with awe. gosh! some guys really worked overtime with their minds i mean on their paintings here. i think so, laughs. oh well! i don't know what to say, but what a work of art, yes they are indeed! :) okay, i really like the no. 2 painting the best, the green umbrella also, for it reminds me of a shelter from a storm :) the heart shaped faces with that pink and red colored lips and of course that lady duck's curly hair, pretty, i think so :) and art is addicting, mesmerizing and a source of fun, laughs. oh well. I'm starting now to really pay attention more on art, laughs. it just give me a source of things to think about and to look at. what ideas or thoughts the artist is trying to convey to you. it will be a portal of entry to their inner minds now if you think about it, laughs, this if you are a good art interpreter that is...which some of us are :) and i think art is not something that you get used to, for one should be a lover of it to appreciate it first and foremost...and really I'm not an art slave err lover yet, not yet so far :) in the future, maybe. but no one can predict the future, so it might just be one of those things that you lose interest with as time goes by :) then it will be just a dead memory where remnants of it is comparable to a skull of unnamed souls, kind or not, either with a friendly name or not...

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and yes, i called my VMLASLB already to greet her. i told her for the first time ever i won't have a gift for her. i ran out of ideas of what to give to a super rich woman! she said she could put up a library for all the books that i gave her already, laughs. and she said it's fine and she asked about Michael :) she is truly LOVE!

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music is us as well. our choices of different melodies define our likes, our taste and our lives. that is how i choose mine plus their sounds, or the lyrics but this is just secondary. the tune or the sound that will make my ears pop, pay attention and would want to hear more :) this is how i select my music, the songs that are close to my heart and those that i want to listen to over and over again :) like those songs of long ago played by my benefactor's husband to her every week end while they sun bathed near their swimming pool, this when they haven't bought that resort mansion in Nasugbu yet :) it was sooo loud that it's a miracle that no neighbors of them then ever complained, laughs. and yeah thanks to UST, and that swimming pool plus that Tali beach, i know how to swim, laughs.

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my mom and my senorita are almost of the same age. strange but my dad and senorito both died at age 60 which is my husband's age now? this will be his answer if you ask him how old he is, but the truth is he's older than that, laughs. "strangers on the shore" yes, my husband's favorite tune, and even my senorito, laughs. my husband likes the beach too, did you notice? :) he was a soldier then, so he takes care of himself most of the time here at home, lucky me :) he also is a very good cook :) but the thing that i won't ever forget about him was he had these family mementos tucked away with things he loved to keep then. U.P. pictures of his dad who was a nurse, his U.P. school album. strange but true a male nurse who was head of hospitals around the country then? this according to my husband, a position given to him by president Diosdado Macapagal, Mrs. Arroyo's dad :) so my husbands family traveled and lived around the country then. and politicians, yes a former vice president's big 8 bedroom house is where we were last vacation, my brother's place now with a 1,000 USD rent a month, 30-40 million in pesos if you buy it, the reason? to park his Mercedes limos, laughs. too expensive to buy, laughs. but anyhow this former vice president is a devout Catholic who was involved in Bible studies after his term of office this after surviving an assassination attempt so maybe that's why he never ran for president, he was afraid that he'll get killed. I like his old house, with that nice garden, a pond as seen in my pic then, huge, huge old mango tree and several fruit trees too, kaimito and tsiko. A mansion with luxurious amenities then that was attached to the rich and the powerful although in comparison now it is a bit laid back. But anyhow there were strange things like ghost in this house according to the care takers. sounds in the middle of the night were heard, gosh! we were there during the day time for i do prefer his condo in Quezon City, near ours where my sister lives and her family :) but really i think these are restless souls that did not pass to the next life yet i think. sad. i never had any experience with ghosts so far, lucky me. my dad when he died never even bothered me at all and so is senorito and dengdeng. they were kind i think for maybe bec. they knew i will be very very afraid, like when at work i don't want to be left by myself packing a dead patient, laughs, true. although i have a very strong stomach for pulsating bloody organs the ones that i always encounter and see in assisting operations for i was an OR nurse then. those organs are alive that's why maybe. oh well. but anyhow i really am afraid of dead persons, terrible! which is nonsense for they can't harm me. are you? would you be brave enough to be left alone in a place by yourself with a dead person? i am and i know the answer why, for maybe you and that dead person are not on the same plane anymore, i dunno, but really this is how i feel :) and yes someday we will all die. i hope my love ones will be there for me but if not i won't mind. for really I'm not sure if i will know if they are there by my side at that time just by my spirit? alone. and you don't know this either. one of the mysteries on earth that is unanswered like similar to how the earth begin to exists and why are we so different in colors and this and that. no satisfactory answers for me at least. yes science, the evolution theory, that big bang theory, the bible had their own explanations but...I'm stubborn for still I'm not satisfied, sorry to admit this but I'm honest :) and we will know? this after we die? that is the question...

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and i love on line diaries now, laughs. i can pour out my inner thoughts on what have yous, but of course i know, secrets should still be secrets, sensitive stuffs i mean should be left out like a plague the juicy ones i mean. after all on line blogs are public domains and it is bugged, laughs. oh well. so, sorry to disappoint YOU...(^_~)...but keep on reading for who knows one of these days my tongue err hands might make a mistake, laughs. but really, don't count on that. i have a little bit of intelligence here you know, may i kindly remind you that :) but at least i gave you bits and pieces in here, so you are not totally left in the dark :)

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and no to comments pls. for per my Internet world experience i observed that people leave the cyberspace disappointed bec. not all people out there are good and kind. there are nasty souls out there with bad mouths unafraid to show their true self to the world bec. they are unknown and can't be traced? this if you don't have the right tools, but they are not that intelligent enough to remember that God is always watching us. they show their true inner selves to us by their bad comments. so to prevent that and a heads up i can control this by not allowing such bad karmas to happen in my own blog with nipping it in the bud, the source, their portal of entry to my own on line diary? this way i am preventing them to be the devil, so really it is a help to these black hearted souls. so for me it is a very very good idea. it worked for me and there is no bumps for me to navigate yet so far in this Internet super hi-way :) so the right way to go, is no comments for me, laughs. although blogging is tiring sometimes laughs. i needed time off soon, laughs. really and truly. it is a tool though for me, a communication bridge for my family and friends plus a mind exercise as well :) so that's that. but it will end eventually sooner or later, laughs, so don't worry, just be patient :) and thanks to those who landed on my journal looking for poems :) and thanks for the kind e-mails as well, i really do appreciate them more than you all will ever know...

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Elvis rocks, that's for sure. again, he isn't the king for nothing :)

LOTS of...

happiness in a plant nursery...why? bec. there are loads of blooms inside...i love going to this place for there are sooo many colorful flowers in full bloom in any given season. and these are the pre-spring bunch. just WOW! i love it! if i have an all year round summer place and a weather like the Phil. my house will be a flower haven with fruit trees too. hope i will have it in the near future. hitting the lotto will make it sooner, laughs. then traveling to the Holy Land first and second, seeing the best beach ever and it is somewhere in the African continent. there are rain forest here in the states too, that will be third for i like rain forest as well. there is a tiny one here where J.C. and me bike and walk during the summer, spring and fall, but a number of trees died this past two years, due to the ash bore insect epidemic...sad. but still the breeze is just cool and fresh. gardens, the beach and the rain forest with mountains and all is nature at its best. my happiness aside from my two boys. I'm at work so i can't load the nursery flower pics yet, I'll do it when i get home :) and i forgot, yes, there is that lot that we have in Filinvest, laughs. but no house yet. oh well. but i like a bigger place. so the plants and fruit trees that i bought last July in the Phil. they ended up in my brod's province place. the ilang-ilang is blooming! this according to my brother. i' really want to see his beach property though, that will be something for me :)

a million love and thanks to all

for your visit, that is... a U.S. hydrangea, my own money plant's flower next, a semi-look alike of it :) a phil. hydrangea and a painted one below, the million dollar bloom. why? bec. of its multi-petals and it's the flower chosen by millionares here to adorn their abodes...wonderful works of hands, don't you think? the painter in here really did a very good job for it almost looked like the real thing? yes, just almost :) what a talent! ...good day to all...

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and a solemn HOLY WEEK CELEBRATION also, then a very HAPPY EASTER!!!

the end of a journey

at last after so many
dreadful days
and restless nights
the journey is over

the rays of the sun
had opened up
the gray and darkness
of the night is gone

answers to questions
suddenly flashed
and doubtful minds
will rest at last

when you think
you'll never know
you will
when you thought
you'll never reach
the summit
and enjoy the view
you would

the heavens connive
to tip you
the planets rotate
to show you
find the way
clear the path
and see the light
to the truth
and be mesmerized
with the shocking
wonder of it all

time for the pillow
to hug you
time for dreams
to reign in your tired
and weary head

sleep at last is here
quiet peaceful and pure
as days and nights roll by
one more turn
one more time
and one more chance...

again it's Elvis rocking it!

flower means happiness :)

i can't be sad that long, so i let the music and the flowers do their job to make me smile :) a painted phil. gumamela, again borrowed from the web. thanks to you whoever painted this. lovely! and the happy rainbow rose :> so you my name be happy now, laughs. oh well. i am helping myself here as my name implies. i wonder will i be happy more if i am really rich? the way to find that out is to win the lotto, laughs. so i needed lady luck here, now pls. :> then i'll write about my findings here, laughs. but i'm pretty sure i'll be happy for i'll bring a lot of happiness to people and that is true happiness i think and they will love me too so happiness to another level here for me. see i know where happiness is :) but let's not forget God. He is love and happiness too as well :> and He is all over, anywhere and everywhere and He is free! now that is something, how did i figure that out. i don't even have to wait for lady luck, laughs. the truth :) happiness is just around the corner. no kidding. really happiness is just a state of mind that we can influence and manipulate. for me by the sounds of music and the sight of a flower :)

do names matter

i won't pass any judgement in the selection of given names as my mother did to me. most mothers name their children as they please upon birth. i do think about it once in awhile though but i never ever brought it personally to her attention. i complained and questioned it silently and wrote it in my blog recently. my name is not really that bad. it is a title of an opera by Verdi and a made musical by Elton John, so that's why i can claim that my name is tied to music. the meaning of it in baby book names is not bad either= rich, happy, helper= nice isn't it? and she was an Ethiopian princess exiled in Egypt with her king dad, fell in love with a valiant head of the Egyptian army who is also loved by the princess of Egypt. now love triangles are bad. since this man love her than this Egyptian princess where they live, as the story of that opera goes, this man was condemned to death bec. of it and this exiled Ethiopian princess had chosen to die with him and crept unnoticed and lay with him in the coffin and they died buried together alive, the punishment. now that is love even in death. wow i was so unhappy when i found that out. tsk! martyr, sacrifice, true love but unhappy ending who would want that. sad. so now can you blame me if I'm not totally in love with my name? that opera needs to be rewritten but Verdi is dead. gosh! I'm sad, really, bec. of it. why does Verdi has to end it like that? that i thought i would never know until Elham my middle eastern nurse co-worker told me that the story really happened in real life where Verdi's inspiration came from. hearing this made me doubly sad. my name's sake had found true love but a love that's unfulfilled. even how good the music in this opera is, it won't never cheer me up, now that i know that two souls suffered bec. of love, true love that is. well, that is the story of my name that i came to know. so to me my name is a reminder of that sad love story. so do name matters? yes, to me, definitely...
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music: "the lonely shepherd" by Gheorge Zampir

thanks for your visit...

as always :) and HAPPY B-DAY SENORITA! May God bless you, love you and keep you in His graces forever...
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I've been in this country for exactly half of my entire life and there is no other time that i remember that politics is so heated than today. an African American man and a woman are there on the stage ready to claim the presidency given the luck and the chance, marking a historic moment in politics here. Hillary or Obama? yup Obama is ahead in delegates count right now, thanks to the help of republican masked as independent voters. they voted for Obama with the thought that he is easier to beat than Hillary eventually when the race is on to the presidency. he, Obama won on red states here meaning the republican territories comes general election time. twisted politics, a scheme concocted to bag the prize. but you know as they say nothing happens without God's will or permission. even what kind of impediments or insurmountable odds going against our way. if it is meant to be it will happen but if it isn't then it won't, that's my belief. so whatever i wish or want i pass it on to God and He decides for me, then i accept wholeheartedly whatever outcome or verdict is there for me :) this way i won't be that much disappointed, and i won't have that much of a heartache. smart of me? nope, it's just passing it to the one that knows what's best for me, God :) that is the way, that is my way in navigating my own life in this earth. i ask and i hope that doors will be opened for me :) it had already. yes, it had...so a proven right strategy with results for me... really, God is good and loves us all. all we have to do is have faith, trust and believe in Him :)
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so Hillary don't lose hope. there is no high mountain to climb if God is with you for it will happen. just pray hard :)

pink roses and green hearts

how nice that you remembered
the good old days gone by
how sweet that you remembered
the words that light our lives

strangers in cyberspace
all floating in the air
all unknown souls
all unfamiliar faces
entangled and intertwined
by this web world wide

how can we say our thanks
how can we express our smiles
to people so far away
whom we've never meet
whom we've never seen
in this life

one thing is for certain
acts of kindness won't be forgotten
when blank stares and blank papers
are just the remains
are just what's left
of a song or of a story
that decided to end...

thanks for the memories, nice meeting you all in cyberspace :)

always thanks...to YOU, SENORITA :)

from my garden one summer time... lovely lilies and pink love roses for YOU!
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"the wonder of you" as sung by the KING...yup God is all that... the wonder, the great and the good...pls. read my latest additional entry down under...here :)
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so yes, the serenade songs continue.. by the best singer of all...this according to me :) ELVIS, the KING of ROCK N' ROLL for me is only meant for the best person that I've meet in this life :) the ONE person on earth that changed my life forever. i thank YOU and i will never ever forget your kind heart and endless generosity...the songs that was burned then by your beloved for you. i considered it as a privilege to have listened to them then and here are just a few of those melodies. HAPPY B-DAY to you SENORITA! on the 14th :) although i know you are not reading this but the thought of that a higher being and of senorito up above are, will be more than enough. you are almost 80 now, but you've changed so little. you are still as beautiful as I've seen you the first time I've met you. and not only that outside beauty that you have but that inner beauty of your character as well. so beautiful inside and so beautiful outside. we are very lucky to be the recipient of your presents and of your presence on earth. God bless you! from the bottom of my heart i thank God for YOU :)
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we meet so many lives on this earth but only a few will be remembered and will be etched forever in the deepest corners of our hearts...and you SENORITA tops my list. I LOVE YOU FOREVER! I will call you on your special day to say my thanks. i know that is not enough but nothing really that i can do to repay you than to pray for you always...you have everything in this world, you own everything that i ever wanted to give you. those tons of books (cooking, inspirational, gardening) perfumes, jewelries, aprons, cooking pots and utensils, and CD's were nothing compared to what you already possessed...i look forward to visiting you once again as i do again and again on every vacations of mine in the Phil...that is one of the things that i ever looked forward to and the reason of my vacations as well. i love seeing your kind and beautiful face one more time...forever if i can...it just brings smile into my face...i can go on and on and on here. but the best that i remember in your house now is your garden. i'd like to think that this is the outcome of those books that i gave you then.
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you've made me a millionaire since age 26, in Philippine money of course :) although that is just mere middle class here by American standards. you've made my poor life leap a million fold, although I'm not rich really. not only me had reap the rewards of your kindness but my family as well. plus I've seen and been living my life in the best country in the world this according to the Americans :) and it's all because of you. Gosh! YOU ARE LOVE!!! to me...no question! words are not enough to describe you and to thank you...you made my life livelier, a lot easier and more happier. thank you, thank you for everything. i wish you can just read this...i wonder what will your thoughts be :) but i would never ever know. i hope in some ways i made you happy and made you proud...that will really be something for me. it will mean so much...more than you will ever know...my life had been brightly decorated by you, by your caring and loving heart...for a poor person like me that is a blessing, a grace coming from God no more no less...you made things happen for me! thank God so much for YOU!
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and as Dolly Parton sings it "I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!!! :> always and always and always! that should say it ALL... :) and God pls. relay my message to her?
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"SPITTING IT BACK" ...a very sad sordid scandal broke out today in New York. its democratic governor a supporter of Hillary was caught in a prostitution ring involvement... he was client no. 9 who paid 4,300 USD to that pretty petite brunette for her sex service to him that was described as "that went well" he was a crime fighting lawyer who went after guys like him now sadly, who dug unsavory stuffs of his opponents and used against them for their downfall and now the table is turned back at him, like a painted tongue that has its own mind. pointing it back at us for maybe we are the one who really deserved it after all in actuality. just a self righteous organ who knows what's right and sticks by it. really things happen in ways that we can't ever predict. strange, like right always wins over wrong...as Jesus always wins over Satan...it will only be just a matter of time...so pls. let us all be aware of that...let our "rosaries" and our "bibles" help us and guide us to the right path of life :) and we won't ever be lost...believe me for God is good and God is always right :)

the music never stops...

now you can tell who i am reading, laughs. not fiction books that's for sure, laughs. but that is a given if you've been a reader of this blog. no copy cat entry in here derived from other people's brain or mind. all are definitely coming from this coconut of mine which i think would make some people totally nuts, like you, laughs. oh well. but i can say that most although not all are my very own thinking or idea. not stolen and copied. now, the question is would a person who is well read, be a smart human kind? yes, some are, i would agree, but definitely not all bec. they just stole other people's thoughts or ideas. they copy them or they start their own from these ideas which came from these fiction books that they've read. what monkey sees err reads monkey does err copies, laughs. intiendes? of course you understand, laughs. oh well. and btw reading is not the thing that make you smart. it is what's in your genes. geniuses are born to be that and reading is just one of the tools where it will manifest or show that inherent quality that they have and also helps them to develop their exceptional talent whatever that is maybe. but one can be a genius without reading like blind pianist Ray Charles and singer Stevie Wonder :) reading is not all there is my friend to be smart. more specifically not reading fictions like your books? i don't know, for I've never read yours. did you help anyone just by them merely reading your published works or you just drove them nuts like i do to you? laughs. oh well. so be very careful with what you read, for you will become what you read sometimes like kids going to killing spree, inspired by what they read and watch. not very good if you ask me :)

i don't mind as long as it's Elvis :) "are you lonesome tonight?" i don't think that guy, the husband of the sister of my benefactor's husband is lonesome tonight, laughs. oh well. "love is like a fly that flits from shit to shit" this according to some write up awhile ago. i wonder what is he referring to, laughs. a very personal experience maybe? like close encounter of the heart kind that is very very close? laughs. but why is that smelly and repugnant poop simile? that is just not right :) how about love is like that buzz of a bee that moves from bloom to bloom, or that shine of the sun that shimmers in the sand, or that symphony or that sound of a song that hits a heart, or that scent of a sampaguita that sips through your nose, or that special positive feeling for someone that would never last. i think the last is the best definition. although true love is enduring, everlasting and a sacrifice like Jesus' love for us is the ultimate :) i think. but you can have your own definition as well as this writer had, laughs. oh well. and none of this i think was the love given by that man to my senorito's sister. it wasn't that kind of love at all, the kind that i defined love with in here, sad. yeah it was love alright, but it's just as temporary as our lives on this planet earth. just as temporary as that flight of that fly or that bee, and just as limited as our encounters with each other on this earth. that love, his love is not forever as Jesus' love for us. not forever as that writer had defined it to be then. and that is just sadness unsurpassed...for his love is similar to fiction, an illusion that is not true. which ever way you slice or dice it. although it can be a subject of a film or a movie but that's about it. a sad story where your morning glory won't want to hear, to read or to be at the middle of, am i right? i could be wrong too you know, laughs. oh well.

congrats Hillary! i hope this is just the beginning. you deserved it girl :) a man's turf you are trying to invade. I'll pray that you'll be successful. and snow can you pls. disappear now? i'm sooo tired of you. the other night at 10:35 PM, i was trying to navigate over 4 inches of snow. i can't speed up, so i was 20:48 min/sec late. what a bummer. it is just getting into my nerves now. why can't you come when I'm off? so that i won't mind your presence. gosh!

and i need to catch up on my reading on those... self help books that is, laughs. i want to know how can i be of help on this planet earth so that i can pass it on to you as well, laughs. bec. i think it's all fiction that's all what's in your head. how can we meet and see progress if we are just day dreaming? all illusions won't get us nowhere. i want true action here not make believes. can you blame me? words are just lies flying with the wind. the earlier we realized it the better we are as a person. so game? let's go, laughs. where you asked? in reality land, that is where :)

golden locks...that caught your eyes

lovely and long
glistening and bright
curly? and shining
a winding delight

soft and shimmering
like rays of the sun
glossy and silky
like golden threads
of a dazzling divine

hair of your head
the outer you
be crooked or straight
it will define you

your inner self
your inner soul
your inner character
the true, inner you

was it good or
was it a snake
was it an angel
or was it a fake

did you dye it
for you're ashamed
of its true color
bec. it wasn't great?

ladies a warning: beware...to dye one's hair like Madonna's... only poisons it. it will be good for a short while. but if you look closely after the fake chemicals had done their job, your hair will lose its luster. the victim, your hair will split. it will be dull like a raggedy doll. now if you look at the picture of your hair that you colored in fake blonde, you need to dye it again! for its black roots are showing and you wanted it in beautiful blonde? it is ugly. and very very noticeable in your pictures as your hair grows. just look at the top of your head in those pictures. terrible and not good to look at, that dyed fake hair of yours. less than half of the top is black and the half lower part is blonde. sorry, but it's the truth. now it will be a problem bec. not unless you cut it to the roots as your black? curly hair grows you need to dye it again. so no one will notice the true color of your dark? curly and lovely locks of your lifetime :> i love Madonna but as all girls here in the U.S. does, they color their hair. to me these fake fashionable coloring fluids must go, laughs. now i wonder my mother uses them, will i use them too eventually? laughs. how about a wig, in brunette, color wise, that is, laughs. now that case of the root problem will be solved here, laughs. oh well. you learn something about yourself every day. just keep on reading :> now pls. don't let your BF or your significant other dye his hair too, bec. that will be a very very bad advice, laughs. just a joke. i know these men rely on their fashionista GF's advice, laughs. that is a fact written somewhere :> it will be a big mistake. now you have to prove me wrong on this one, laughs. oh well. to be natural is the way to go ladies, not being fake, sometimes, laughs. not being what you really are not. but if you must, better look good in it, like Madonna, laughs. no side effects that could easily be seen :) for these side effects, someone along the way will notice, someone who will show it to you painfully. now that's a shame...i know you don't want my advice, but you can take it or leave it. but remember i'm 2-3 years older than Madonna so i have a little wisdom here to spare, laughs. oh well. the rest she had them all. talent, beauty, money and fame to name a few :) but see, when God sprinkled those good qualities on earth I was asleep, so there you go. i missed out on those good ones, laughs. it was not meant for me, that's the way i see it and i feel good afterwards, laughs. oh well, what can we do. God decides all as He always does. He made me sleep at that precise time :) so look at me, laughs. pardon pls...

I thank YOU ALL for your visit :)

assorted songs, coming from my ipod :) ...enjoy? pls... if you can :) and i go for the melodies, on how the song sounds not the lyrics, sometimes. i wish i can insert my own lyrics on some of the songs here, laughs. and let's begin with... who else? Elvis, of course. then go for the rest. i can't stop loving YOU ALL, would you believe that? ...(^_~)...laughs, I KNOW this is STUPIDITY and pls. don't remind me but i'd like to remind you this: if the songs here hurt your ears, you know what to do. you're an adult, this i supposed, laughs. but if we have the same taste which i doubt it very much, it will be like lightning then. electricutedly ours, these music i mean, laughs. people will envy us, jealousy. again? enough of that, laughs. now this is not even counting my pinoy choices here, i have some too you know, laughs. even if i'm not there in these gigs personally :) but i will, yes i will. eventually, God willing :> sooo, then? let ELVIS ROCK US ALL? :> he ain't called the KING for nothing, you know :)
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then MY MUSIC, my choices, that is, will all slowly float in the air, one by one :) so brace yourself, laughs...or click out, your choice :)
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but...before mine, will be the songs dedicated to the ONE person on earth that changed my life forever. i thank YOU and i will never ever forget your kind heart and endless generosity...the songs that was burned then by your beloved for you. i considered it as a privileged to have listened to them then and here are just a few of those melodies. HAPPY B-DAY to you SENORITA! although i know you are not reading this but the thought of that a higher being and of senorito up above are, will be more than enough. you are almost 80 now, but you've changed so little. you are still as beautiful as i've seen you the first time i've met you. and not only that outside beauty that you have but that inner beauty of your character as well. so beautiful inside and so beautiful outside. we are very lucky to be the recepient of your presents and of your presence on earth. God bless you! from the bottom of my heart i thank God for YOU :)

who is the right person?

BUT when all is said and done if war hero John McCain, who is 72 y/o and his second wife Cindy, 53 y/o, will be the next first couple here, it's okay with me. His votes in the senate were leaning more on the liberal side so the pain is not sooo much as what this present president had done to the economy and to this country in general. lost lives, the credit crunch, the mortgage meltdown, tax credits for the rich corporations just to ship jobs overseas for more profit in their pockets and the soaring gasoline and oil prices. i thought Iraq had plenty of oil to upset this problem, that's what the true reason of the war in the first place, but instead oil and gas prices shoot to the roof. these oil companies with billions of profits courtesy of this worst president's administration here. gosh! and i could go on and on, and on...like go, go, go for him in the dumps on my assessments, laughs. sorry, but it's the truth and it hurts...

the one you want on the other line when emergencies arise, the one you trust your life with when danger comes. we meet many lives on earth, we meet many people that we admire, that we look up to. but in all as we summarized there could only be just one. who can answer that call right, who can handle and have that right judgement in that critical moment in time when lives are at stake, that moment in need of split second decision making. i would prefer for Hillary to be on that other line on that phone answering that call in the middle of the night, for my second country which is the U.S. now. so it is my hope that Hillary will win the nomination and eventually the U.S. presidency. she has the greater amount of experience. she's been tested in battle and ready to serve. politics is profoundly affecting American lives nowadays for we are at war but even in peace. but more so now though with this economy going downhill and these wars in terror at hand. it is very scary i think to have a new person there propelling our country just like in a trial and error sort of thing. it is too much important of a job. so for my peace of mind i want Hillary on the driver seat instead of Obama. and besides there is Bill there a two term president who've been there and done that, to help her in time of need, in time of dire need. so I'll go and vote for her :) and I'm not laughing here for I'm serious. and i don't think i will go and vote for Obama if he wins the nomination, sorry...really sorry. maybe if he will be the candidate after Hillary then of course i will...for me experience counts for it's just like a bag of tricks that your hands can count on in time of need. i think so and i believe so :)